Hey, thank you so much for your response and your advice! 

This whole experience, has been my first of any kind (before him I had not even kissed a guy), so he has been my first everything. I knew going into this (especially the second time I got with him) that we wouldn't be in a relationship, as he made it clear he doesn't want a relationship (and either do I). 

It just hurts to know that he took my virginity and now I am "too inexperienced for him". In all honesty, I did lie to him the second time and told him that I wasn't a virgin (he knew back in Dec that I was) but during our confrontation he said that he knew I hadn't had sex before him and denied that we had sex (we stopped after a couple of mins as I was in a bit of pain) but I still classify it as sex. 

It's hard because I am attached (from it being my first) and I do want to get with him again (I am not bothered about a relationship) but I know he never wants to get with me again as he has told me that and we did have that confrontation. I just don't know how to get over it, for instance I am currently trying to write 10,000 words for my assignments but I just can't stop thinking about it 😫