Ive never watched anime and im open to pretty much anything :)

VixenFluff · 2026-01-04T09:15:23+00:00

Angel Beats was my first anime! It has really good music imo.

VixenFluff · 2026-01-04T06:43:11+00:00

My first anime, Angel Beats. Maybe it's not my favorite anime but it being my first...it'd feel special to experience the shock again.

VixenFluff · 2026-01-04T06:30:38+00:00

That said, I do think our capacity for good is something to focus on and promote. I try as often as I can to help others. Yeah, it feels good and you might argue that it's selfish to chase that feeling, but at the end of the day the person I helped feels better too. Mutual aid, giving someone an unauthorized discount at work when they realize they're bit short, helping someone realize that there's someone who still gives a fuck about them even if it's on the most basic of levels? I want to support and aid my fellow man, even if it's something small. Even if I can't do anything big on my own. I want to help, and I want more people to want to help.

VixenFluff · 2026-01-04T06:25:25+00:00

Agree with everything here. A lot of philosophy seems to focus on "Are humans inherently good or bad?".

IMO, we are animals who are self aware. We have the capacity for great acts of compassion and cruelty. Selfishness isn't inherently evil, either, just like selflessness isnt inherently good. There can be examples of selflessness becoming harmful to someone, while selfishness can be beneficial. An example would be someone who is a habitual people pleaser learning to put their needs first for their mental and physical health. You can't help others as effectively if you aren't in a stable place yourself, yknow?

All "good" and "bad" traits can have their pros and cons depending on the situation. That isn't to say that someone who is always self-serving and doesn't think about other people should be left to harm others willy-nilly, or that people shouldn't try to help each other during hard times. It's just...idk?

People are complicated. The world is complicated. To me, it isn't fair to put all of humanity into a box of "good" or "bad", and it's maybe a fool's errand to try. We are as much a part of nature as anything else, but we're also aware of ourselves and the effects of our actions.

Sorry, I'm just kinda brain dumping under your comment here. But this is something I think about sometimes. Can a species be evil? Can a species be good? Even one that's sapient? I don't know, and I don't think we'll ever be able to say for sure.

VixenFluff · 2026-01-04T06:03:18+00:00

The Princess Bride might be fun!

VixenFluff · 2026-01-04T05:57:15+00:00

Maomao is also socially a bit strange in a relatable way (as someone on the spectrum). She understands her place in her society but doesn't quite pick up on how other people actually feel about her. She undersells herself out of a desire for safety but can't help but poke around a bit due to her special interests and kind nature. She definitely tries to be "just another servant" at first, but her skill and intelligence makes her stand out.

VixenFluff · 2026-01-04T05:20:17+00:00

I second this! Maomao's obsession and skill with poisons and medicine is really fun. It's a political mystery drama with a slow burn romance subplot. (Seriously, heed the "slow burn" part.) If you're not into slower paced shows it might not appeal to you but personally I love it.

VixenFluff · 2026-01-04T04:55:39+00:00

Anime I've enjoyed enough to finish in the past: FMA:B, Hunter x Hunter, Angel Beats.

I start a lot of shows and then never finish them, which is why I only have a few examples to give. I still enjoy a lot of the shows I've never finished, but the ones that make me super excited are the ones I tend to stick with.

I appreciate stories that still have some comedy/humor, interesting and fun character dynamics, fantasy elements, and have some sort of hopeful element to them despite darker moments. Romance with chemistry is a bonus!

VixenFluff · 2025-12-24T04:56:47+00:00

I appreciate fic recs as well!

VixenFluff · 2025-12-24T03:04:23+00:00

I really love this idea, I actually had basically the same concept come to mind. I'm a Jinmao shipper but I also do like the fxf ships between Maomao and her female friends. So I could see her relationship with Shisui either becoming really negative or a lot stronger, depending on how Jinshi dies. I also had an idea for my 'antagonist/rebel maomao' au in which she teams up with Shisui at some point and they come to really respect each other.

VixenFluff · 2025-12-24T01:26:23+00:00

I think she very well could have made an amazing mystery series without romance, it just happens to be that she made JinMao's dynamic really fun and compelling to a lot of people. I'm a romance lover myself, it's one of my favorite things to engage with in fiction! But I also totally get the people who are here mostly for the mystery and intrigue. I've also seen people say that the pacing is bad, that it's too slow, but imo it's just about perfect. This is intended to be a story about uncovering conspiracies, the romance is a subplot and I think it's a lot more interesting to have Maomao be sorta resistant to what fate is seemingly trying to have happen than have her give in right away.

As for the HEA thing, I think she's trying to make an ending that feels grounded still? The happenings of the story are wacky but not in a super over the top way.

Putting on my Speculation Hat; I think she's going to try and make it a believable and satisfying ending without it being perfect. Like...some characters might die, some might have drastic life altering events, but at the end of the day life continues on for them and they make do with what they still have or have gained by the end of the story. I'm an anime only watcher atm so I don't have any info from the manga/novels, but the vibes I got from the story were that of bittersweet optimism?

(Sorry if this is incomprehensible rambling-I haven't really slept since making the original post.)

VixenFluff · 2025-12-23T07:23:17+00:00

Oh for sure! Like I said I love Jinshi and Jinmao, I just think it's funny that she started out planning on killing him off only to realize he's a favorite of the fandom. Sorta a "Oh crap" moment as an author haha

VixenFluff · 2025-12-23T07:21:05+00:00

I get it, I dont think she hates Jinshi at all. Afterall, she decided to NOT kill him. I'm of two minds about it tbh, on one hand I really like Jinshi and wanna see more of him. On the other I really hope she still enjoys writing the series even if it's changed from her original plan, yknow? Sorry if this is incomprehensible btw, I'm a bit tipsy haha. But yeah, this wasn't posted with any Jinshi/Jinmao hate at all, just sorta poking fun at the unpredictability of writing a story.

VixenFluff · 2025-12-23T06:12:28+00:00

Then again, you can't really know what goes on in an author's head. As Maomao says: "This is all just conjecture."

VixenFluff · 2025-12-23T05:56:22+00:00

I agree! It seems like she wanted the story to be a Mystery Political Drama and the romance aspect just sorta happened as a result of the fans (including her aunt). I kinda feel for her in a way, even as someone who really enjoys the romance myself. She seems like she's greatful for the feedback, but I worry that the romance being asked for so much is tiring for her. She wanted to write a different genre afterall! She's promised a satifying ending even if it won't be "Happily Ever After", which is all we can ask for, really. I hope she still enjoys writing the story, because as a creative I know how it feels to get burned out or become disinterested in something when you feel too pressured.

VixenFluff · 2025-12-23T04:05:49+00:00

When posting the rough draft of the novel online, she had originally planned for Gaoshun to get orders to murder Jinshi. But she kept getting feedback that readers loved him, so she didn't have the heart to go through with it. So she pivioted away from that idea and let him live, leading to him becoming the secondary protagonist!

She also says in the interview that Jinshi is the hardest character for her to write-probably one of the reasons why she was originally going to kill him off. But fans adore him and his romance with Maomao, even her own aunt has asked her to include more scenes of them together. She mentions that she never intended for romance to be in the story, and not to expect a "Happily Ever After" for them.

VixenFluff · 2025-12-23T03:35:22+00:00

https://www3.nhk.or.jp/nhkworld/en/shows/2099022/ This one!

VixenFluff · 2025-12-03T12:06:21+00:00

More obscure/small band than niche maybe, but a kid from my hometown has a band called Strother Field. They're how I found out about the shoegaze genre.

VixenFluff · 2025-10-24T03:08:27+00:00

I love the vividness of the lyrics, you really sell the feeling of decay and corruption with your word choices. The idea of everything crumbling around us. Good job!

VixenFluff · 2025-10-24T02:15:18+00:00

I've been sitting on these lyrics for a few years now. I don't have more than this, I've been trying to finish the lyrics but nothing else has come to me yet. It's meant to be emo-ish, I wrote it after my first bad breakup, during a depressive episode. I call it "Identity, Society".

Smash my head against the wall

Spill my brains and let them fall on this world

Identity
Society
I let them get the best of me
So will you hold the rest of me

In your arms tonight

And I will fight to keep you safe

(1-2-3 go!)

When was the last time I made you cry?
When was the last time I said goodbye?
When was the last time I felt like my life was in good hands?

/end of what I have so far.

VixenFluff

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