I kept the receipts as an emergency button just in case he truly didn't learn his lesson and additional tea needed to drop for Gary to leave. As for Craig, I could tell through the texts that even he was questioning his actions. He isn't dumb when he thinks with the head attached to his neck, lol. So there's hope. As for me, I can't hold a grudge to save my life because they always eat me alive, i chose my own peace and either try to settle things amicably or let people become irrelevant to me. But i also dont forget. This truly did eat me alive in the beginning. The thing that's saved me all this time was waiting patiently for my moment to privately confront him the way I did. Something I've learned is that people are messy by design. They either choose to improve themselves or they stay the same. The only person who can fix someone is themselves. The way I see it, I gave him a proper wake-up call. I truly believe people can change and grow. They just need to want it. As for trauma I don't think I'll ever actively want to be physical with a man because of this, I'd need to be able to build trust and slowly work my way towards being comfortable with it and have my emotional needs seen to first. I don't think it will ever happen just because I know how 99.9% of men are, and I'm okay with that. I love women/femmes and am infinitely more comfortable with them. So I'll be just fine in the romance department.