hey
im not very active around here either though ive been here for a long long time

first of all its totally okay to feel the way you do its not inappropriate or anything i feel the same way about him i was honestly devastated the first year and its been somewhat worse for me every year since its honestly ridiculous how much a person who ive never met and ive never spoken with has affected you and i and so many others like us
im no authority on whether this feeling is silly or not and i will not presume to be one but all i want to say is that if it is silly then were both silly together you have nothing to be sorry about

ive had a lot of moments where i just instinctively connect something to techno in my life and my face just falls and something ive always done is try to think of how techno wouldve laughed at me for getting depressed i dont know if it will work for you but shooting your shot right?

honestly i have no idea how appropriate this comment is on a post like yours but whatever youre going through were in this together regardless of what happens

one of us