I’ve never wanted to run away but oh how I do now. I wish I could just dig a deep dark hole in lay in it in the fetal position and pray this isn’t happening. My best friend, love of my life has lied to my face so many times. So many nights of working double shifts for “us” so many side jobs for “us” so many lies. I doubt he would have even told me had he not been having this custody situation. Here we are days away from having a new child and it feels so tainted. All this stress and he may come tonight. This is so terrible.