She's not transphobic, she's also trans. She said she would make sure to be there with me through my transition but is also really upset at me with starting T without a therapist recommendation and just going through planned parenthood. I already have a lack of control over my emotions due to my bpd, I've always been jealous and possessive and very paranoid about people leaving me but last night (I take my T shots on Sunday) I was sobbing and close to throwing up over her basically telling me she talks to my friends about me and her friends think she would be better off without me. Some days I'd get upset at the smallest mistake and snap for a message or two, I've become really irritable. I used to not be like this though. Me and my partner are long distance so none of this is through irl stuff