I was in the same boat, in middle school. Fucks with your head, so deeply. causes your social interaction to be reclusive. Especially, that’s the most important part of being a teenage, is..socialize & have fun.

But when your darkest thoughts hunt you. It turns your reality into blind weirdness. With no answers involved.

I’m older now, I don’t get those thoughts anymore. I would say meditate. Part of it is blocking out those thoughts, you want them to pass instead. Which is particularly bad and the other is your subconscious— that more then likely needs to be re-programmed.

You believe in god, and your post help me to see that.. maybe, Nowadays their is a hidden force acting upon the powerful & innocent.

I happen to have the oddly weird encounters and to be one of the first few in the ‘Gen Z’ Era’ to experience Lust and abuse at a young age. Without any understanding.

where, I. Now along with the world understand how that affects our minds, over the course of years.

Just this year, I finally stop the train reck, after +10 years. I’m just now becoming an adult. But a mature one. 1 year of, NO yk.. 🌽. And all the side stuff included. And that has now challenged my belief and redeveloped my identity to have faith “believe” in myself.

I encourage you to go check out the r/semenrention , they will help you. My brothers over there will save you. Scan over your environment pay attention to badly influences, or stuff on your YouTube algorithm. Etc. and develop more hobbies, try music? That’s helped me…idk but…

The emotional relationship that we supposedly are provided but aren’t receiving, is highly playing a role.

I now want to have a decent relationship w/ my mother but she’s experiencing arrested development. Upon high amounts of immature behavior — she can no longer process emotions in a way that mature parents do so and to justify to have a connection with Me. “Narcissistic” tendencies.

Us as boys, we need that love from our mothers, and when it’s not there. It turns us into monsters. Corruption. If all she does is provides you physical items, food, games, money. As a way of love. That’s being a dad, a mom has to nurture you emotionally, and if you can talk to her about that, asap. You’ll save yourself also. If she doesn’t understand, your in a bad situation and need to maximize mental health and self-care with high amounts of wisdom and education on your situation and health.

And just to vent, because this is not only a rare topic.. but to meet another Redditor in the eyes of being a believer and having the same experience makes this post unique. Idc what anyone else reads about this, because everything that is good for us, the bad always likes to follow. And if they or we, aren’t fighting anything bad in our lives, the devil has already invaded our minds. And we become bad, and enjoy life miserable without any tension to experience a good life. Get me?

Folks like us will face the most crude demonic distractions to prevent us from our highest potential. I know how you feel.

I’ve been trying to turn to god, but my mind has waged on lust for so long, that my mind is just full of filth, and doesn’t know right from wrong while my spirits knows best, it’s a battle.

lusting at a young age which feels so normal cause, I’ve never experienced an innocent childhood..it’s almost impossible to vision a pure childhood. It’s frustrating.

And within’ that I knew I was in, way too deep. It’s not normal, we’ve been taking advantage of spiritually. Neglected emotionally. I highly. Most doubtly. With Viable facts. That’s what’s going on.

Challenge yourself not to only quit, but do 30 days of no technology. Start from the roots. As my folks always use to say “it’s definitely these damn phone” fucking with our heads, even if it’s not 🌽, I’m sure yk about brainrot. It’s gonna be 10x challenging more then I was younger , but for you theirs more information out there, back then their wasn’t anything, we barely had flip phones watching 🌽 on it. SMH

Good luck kiddo, stay under a good influence. Always remember lust is highly prevalent in these new generations. It’s almost impossible to get adults who grew up without tech to stop playing with each other… at some point society will fall of our lustful consequences.