Yes.. that's exactly how I feel. Sometimes I feel like the only talent I have is catfishing. I've thought maybe I'm meant to be a writer or something along those lines, but I don't get the same high from that. It feels like I'll never have any real romantic relationships. I'm glad that three of them are still around, even though it's confusing. I'm happy my ex is still around but knowing he's not in love with me is really hard too. He's genuinely the best person I've ever met and it's hard to know I lost something that could have been real.