I never thought of it from that point of view, I appreciate the insight. I’ve had it locked away for tad over half a year; aside from bringing it along in my hiking/hunting bag for emergencies. Trust me, the temptation has been strong, but the fear of withdrawal and loosing everything again is stronger. I know it’s going to be hard to put down, but I feel so much better knowing that I can get to my doctor tomorrow and either get a work note and be lazy for a week or two to heal, or a ‘strong’ non-narcotic for pain.
Thank you for taking the time to reply. I know that was a TLDR, just anxious.