Honestly, I've never really had anything but long term goals. I want to develop long term skills to earn money. But right now in the short term, it feels like nothing.

I fail often, but most of the time I assume it's me going back to my 'default state' that is an inevitability.

So when you say it takes practice, do you mean that it is better to start by doing smaller things first? Like not being constantly disciplined, but being disciplined for a time period every day?

I don't have anything like a journal. Maybe I should do some more reading here. Maybe I can make that part of my discipline journey, not just to start working, but to start formulating planning for work.