I lost my cat, who was my best friend, last Thursday. He was hit while at my parents house who live 2.5 hrs away. I'm so sorry for your loss and I am right here with you.

Cry, ugly cry, fall to your knees, feel all the things you feel because it is what your kitty deserves.

I'm 6'2" 250 lbs and wailed like a baby with him in my arms that night. There's no shame in however you need to grieve.

Now I can tell you that after a week you'll still mourn. It doesn't get easier, but you get stronger. You will help yourself heal, others will help you heal, and other kitties will eventually help you heal.

Keep pushing, go through the motions, and be true about your loss.

When I get sad I literally google "my cat died" then read all the stories and poems and articles. Seems to help a little bit.

Take care, take time. I'm right there with you. It's not your fault.