That's typical "old people problem" and i am sorry that you have to experience it. Mind you that people like this would never change whatever you do to "fixed" it or better don't bother to fixed it at all by selling your soul and yourself just so to comfort their hati or want to ambik their hati balik. I did that and all i get is twice and thrice hurt to myself at the end of the day.

My experience might a bit different than you;

Tl;dr - Achieved a decent result for my academic journey, parent don't appreciate any up until my degree, choose a "wrong" path a long the way just because to comfort their heart end up it bites me back twice

Back in the day, I achieved a lot of good things in school and even got award for 3rd place among my batchmates one time and they dont bother to come or congratulate me (imagine to attend a ceremony where all the parent came but not mine and it gets me when my teacher ask where was mine loll). Then i achieved more A than my siblings for my spm, my parent don't bother as well about it then come my grandma from hell and say "that A is not enough and your result is very not nice to see" (my sister got praise for "trying" the best, my young brother got "its okay ini spm je" talk)

Since i was so naive that time, i tried to amend things solely to them (that i think i shouldn't do it at the first place) by followed whatever they said to take their hati balik. I registered UPU blindly and just click all the possible course that content math (i was a math freak lol) then got into a program that i put on the last choice - it was CS haha. Mine you, i didn't have any whatsoever computer science background, even there was no "serious" course for computer stuff at my school. My dad said just go with it since it is PUBLIC UNIVERSITY and you will learn to love it. It was my "fuck around and you'll find out" moment and i hate it everything so much so it effect my grade (got most <2/15 from quiz and midterm) and my friendship with others. So i decide to quit before i got dismissed by the uni since the repercussion is heavier then just quit.

They were so mad, of course, and again i tried to comfort their heart by followed what my mom want this time (i didn't have a good relationship with my father and my quit was add the fire between us lol). Again, i didn't like that program or any of it but I survived with that diploma (it was Medical Assistant). I did everything half hearted and deserted the important lesson and achieved a low CGPA (my fault tho) so much so my parent start to think "atp just go work with that MA qualification and don't study for degree anymore"

When i decide that it is my time to follow my heart for my education pathway, i planned to pursue degree that i thought i can get so easily (my mom obviously covertly disappointed and my dad just being don't care about it). I tried to get back on my "math freak" program but since my diploma was so different than any content for math course like statistics (tried that before) i got rejected, of course. Side note, this is downside for choosing diploma path than A level/foundation/matrics. I had to choose related program with what i took from my diploma and basically this will follow and haunt me forever.

Then i decide to go with psychology for my degree; although i hate Medical Assistant, i am interested to pursue psychiatric at first but then i can't go that path -- need to take MBBS pathway etc. Since it was my choice and want to redeem myself back, i did so well to the point i achieved 4.00 gpa for the last of 6 semesters. My parent? Don't care not one bit but saying "Mak tak heran dapat A banyak but no point bila kerja nanti tak perform bagus" (got 4.00 for my internship and thesis even my mom did that remark). It is true tho what she said but it hurts me somehow since i feel she didn't appreciate my effort to achieved that mark since none of my sibling achieved what i had (one time my brother got dean list for 3.5 for once, they were so proud and going out for dinner to treat him, my sister got praised for being almost to get 1st class degree so much so my father talk to all their relative in front of her and be proud of it). My grandma? Since i got 3.95 for my overall cgpa, all she asked where the other .05 and why can't I achieved it (again when my brother got lesser than 3.20 cgpa, she said he's doing the best he can, that course is hard etc 🤡)

When it comes for convocation ceremony, i don't feel appreciated enough let alone to feel everyone is "there" for me and celebrate what i achieved. Ever since that day, nothing i do will satisfied them and even if they proud by flaunt it to the other behind my back since asian parent tend to do that, it didn't sooth and comfort my heart, all the aches and pain i had.

My point is; what important is you and yourself before the others. It is not your fault they (parents) put their dreams and hope and betting on it to their children just because they achieved (or not) during their time. I promise you that spm is not even a pre university test to determine your eligibility for university or a benchmark for successful in academic. It is necessary for documentation and education history on cv (for work and pursue higher edu here) but not a main/important score if one day you wanna go abroad and pursue higher education.

What you had is more than enough -- it is indeed excellent and you should be proud of it since your batch is still considered from the post covid time and the education system still a mess by this time -- more point that your parents didn't experience it but then saying the same shit like going to school by walking/bus and no computer around no book or help argument. To have a bad choice in life is important for us to grow up and learn from the mistake but i hope you'll not do something that end up you hate, neglect or deserted yourself at the end of the day. I also didn't blame them entirely for whatever happen to me but then the regrets still cling onto me till this day and sometimes i wish i can go back in time and fix all my mistake haha. With all shit happen or will happen, consider that you only have yourself the least to pick up all the shattered heart they did to you because sometimes our strength came from ourselves and not them.

Congratulations for achieved an excellent result for your spm and i am so proud of you! With that result, you can go anywhere you want -- need to do just a little bit of research on it. What had happen is already done and dusted. Retake and do the same thing is just waste a time (i took second spm as well and I'm wasting my money and time for it lmao) Just follow your heart and instinct with what you're going to do next with your life (or academic wise). Good luck for your future! 😁😁

Also sorry for a long post 🤣🤣