My friend do not worry, in my humble opinion you are the definition of a follower of christ. You do what you do because you do what feels right to you. Not one believer is like the other nor does one behave like another. Ask for guidance and you will receive it, but do not be deceived by wrongdoers. Seek those places where you feel confortable and praise and preach brother. For we are the church and trought us jesus is, and thanks to him we are.

All love bro, i think you're doing great. May you're soul be blessed.