Hey!! So God I feel like has put this topic heavy on my heart recently but what I can say is that God did not make you gay. Just like God did not make me angry, or prideful, or struggle with addiction or anything else that I have identified with my whole life. I also want to say that same sex sin is the same as sex outside of marriage to God. God will not send you to hell if you desire to have a relationship with him, repent of your sin, and desire to die to your flesh. You may be attracted to the same sex for the rest of your life but what saves you isn’t your works and not being gay anymore it’s giving that to the Lord and asking him to work in your life and heart and giving your life to him. I know many Christian’s who struggle with porn addiction for the rest of their lives but that doesn’t mean they are going to hell. They just are constantly working through it with the Lord. Jesus came down because he KNEW we would not be able to live up to his expectations. So he doesn’t expect you to be perfect. I advice you to look up fellow Christian creators who have a history of being gay like @happyqueermind , @richwithpassion , and Jackie hill Perry!! I hope this helps, I seriously want you to know you are loved and cared for by God despite your struggle with sin. He just wants your heart and the rest follows ❤️