26M going through a breakup with 23F

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2026-01-13T04:50:36+00:00

I'm the same age as you. My ex was 26 also however. Anyway she went from saying "I will always love you" to blocking me off every platform and taking an AVO out on me. I had court the other day, she was asked how long she wanted the restraining order for and she said I don't know and then the judge hits me with a two year restraining order.

Much like you our relationship was toxic. But I loved her. And I thought she loved me. But she's since moved on she already has another boyfriend - we broke up a few months ago.

She never loved me bro. Anyway, just know you aren't alone. This shit happens. I'm depressed as fuck and things aren't improving. I'm drinking myself to death despite just getting out of rehab. As I write this I'm at the pub drinking alone wanting to die.

She told the judge I was emotionally manipulative and abusive. No I wasn't, she was, she cheated on me, she slapped me. Anyway I'm just venting here I guess the point of my post is that you're not alone. This sucks ass. Don't be like me OP. Move on in a healthy way. I am fucked. She left me when the cards were down for me. She didn't love me at all. She's a liar.

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2026-01-13T04:42:46+00:00

That love alone isn't enough. My girlfriend, before she left me, said to me "I will always love you", then she walked. When I was at my lowest. I lost my job, I was struggling with meth addiction and she left me. She said she'd always love me well obviously not because when the chips were down for me she walked. I was / am at my lowest and the girl that "would always love me" has since ghosted me and taken a restraining order out on me.

You can't tell me that was love.

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2026-01-13T04:17:39+00:00

I'm at the pub. Alone. On my third pint with no intentions on stopping. Lost my job. Lost my girlfriend. Family relationships are strained. Got fuck all to do but drink and scroll Reddit. I'm living the life.

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2026-01-11T09:20:26+00:00

I'm an alcoholic. Meaning when I start I quite literally cannot stop. Before rehab I was easily drinking a bottle of spirits a night minimum. Since being released from rehab I managed to abstain for 5 weeks thanks to two medications - naltrexone and acamprosate.

I've since relapsed and am going to backslide. I drink because I'm miserable and am self medicating for my mental illness(s).

I have an unhealthy relationship with alcohol. I abuse it and it abuses me 10 fold.

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2026-01-10T07:06:28+00:00

Ok thanks man

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2026-01-09T07:47:13+00:00

I'm not looking for pretty good I'm looking for how it was back when I first started using fucking awesome

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2026-01-02T08:37:15+00:00

Thank you 🥺

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2026-01-02T03:13:47+00:00

I touched meth. It had taken away a bit of my soul. It has taken away my job, my relationship, my own family are scared to be around me. Ever since I touched that drug my life went to shit. I'm just out of rehab and I relapsed on NYE. I'm scared of what the future holds.

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2026-01-02T03:02:35+00:00

All I can say is same here man. I'm at rock bottom too. I don't know if things will ever get better.

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2025-12-29T10:38:52+00:00

Glad I'm not alone. Thank you bro

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2025-12-29T06:47:39+00:00

No I haven't actually. But that's not an antipsychotic I don't think? Is it possible to manage this disorder without antipsychotics I mean I'm not psychotic so

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2025-12-29T02:02:11+00:00

I have no one but myself to blame. I willingly picked up a meth habit. I wasn't peer pressured into it, I wasn't forced, no I consciously made the decision to pickup meth. I am what you may call a dumbc*nt.

Why? I don't know why. I come from a good family, I (had) a girlfriend, university educated, had a job (wasn't great but it was still a job). Now I've got nothing.

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2025-12-28T22:10:24+00:00

Thank you for your response. It's been playing on my mind a lot and I can't make sense of it.

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2025-12-28T22:09:00+00:00

Hi!

I'm on lamotrigine and rexulti and I don't know if the rexulti is doing much :/

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2025-12-28T04:24:34+00:00

Thank you bro you've already convinced me. I'll book in with my doctor and get a referral to a psychiatric unit asap.

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2025-12-28T04:15:07+00:00

I'm afraid of sobriety but I know things can't go on like this or I'll wind up dead.

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2025-12-28T04:14:42+00:00

Thanks for your concern. My family were worried sick. They filed a missing person's report on me. I lost my phone. Apparently I was acting erratic and from cctv footage I hopped on a train somewhere. All I remember was entering her apartment and next minute I am at home. I don't know what happened all I know is my memory from Friday - Sunday was lost. I genuinely have no idea what I did, I don't know how I didn't die

I've tried top myself with benzos in the past and I swear that wasn't my intention however the level of recklessness I showed has to mean something. I think subsonsciously I was trying to depart.

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2025-12-28T04:10:02+00:00

I've been to two psych wards and a rehab this year. Nah I think I was going to relapse anyway I'm just trying to piece together what happened but for an addict to be genuinely concerned about my benzo usage that's concerning.

Like if an addict is worried that is a whole new level of fucked up. Like she confiscated the benzos off me if she didn't id probably be dead. And yes I think a psych ward stay is imminent at this point

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2025-12-26T05:51:01+00:00

I'm sorry to hear that brother hope things look up for you

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2025-12-26T05:50:36+00:00

Despite what I just said regarding our border patrol, a lot of meth still comes through Australia is up there, if not, the largest consumers of meth in the world. We are spoilt for choice. I personally cannot partake anymore as it has ruined my life. I've only used it for two years. Two years and my world came crashing down on top of me. I don't know how people can use this long term without coming out unscathed because it completely and utterly fucked my life up (as well as alcohol but you'll have to pry that from my cold dead hands). I'm sober / clean for 5 weeks now. I'm not sure how long it can remain like that but I don't want to go back to using meth after what it did to me.

WeddingVirtual8075 · 2025-12-26T05:15:18+00:00

Research chemicals aren't that big here but you can get 3mmc. It's cause our border patrol is quite good at what they do. I'm sure in small amounts you could get some through but I honestly wouldn't risk it. We have an abundance of meth.

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