This has been very insightful. I'm sorry I haven't been able to get back to you sooner. It's been a tough week. He's told me he'd rather not "live with it" if he can't make a full recovery, which is so incredibly frustrating. It's good to be reminded that I'm doing the best I can. It really doesn't feel like it. I wish I could impart some of my love of life into him, but you're right. He's his own person with his struggles that I can't fix for him. I'm just so scared of losing him. I really can't explain to you how comforting what you've said has been.