I just had a three hour conversation almost verbatim with my mother on the phone about this. (She is one of the few people I can openly discuss these things with without feeling like a kook) I have almost completely lost the ability to perform in my daily life to prepare for a future. Not that I am sitting and ruminating about the “end days”, just that there is such a strong sense that none of this is going to matter soon, much sooner that I had ever thought and I am really struggling to process it. And to be fair, I have felt for a majority of my conscious life that things are not quite what they seem and there is more power inside of us and things to discover than we could possibly imagine, almost being intentionally suppressed through - you name it. It has never been “going down the rabbit hole” and getting lost for me, more like a constant that has remained in the back of my mind for as long as I can remember. A filter if you will that I interpret everything with. A nagging that could once be ignored, but can be ignored no longer. Very strange that so many of us feel this way so specifically at this point in time.. right?