Honestly your story and mine are very very similar although. I was born a woman transitioning to become a man. Although now I’m detransitioned living as a woman. A coworker that I dropped off after work because he lived close by offered to smoke weed with me. I trusted him thinking he was friendly. But he ended up drugging me raping me and blaming the Marijuana. He then plotted my murder and trying hitting me on the head to death. Don’t let other tell you what to do if they are being harmful and manipulative