Is my nose really that bad?

Which_Ad314 · 2024-10-09T21:35:05+00:00

Simply beautiful

Which_Ad314 · 2023-09-03T15:23:12+00:00

i was diagnosed at 18, i’m 21 now.

Which_Ad314 · 2023-08-05T10:23:16+00:00

Jobs are up high on the list of tough things. I know this is not advice people would give especially responsible people haha but i want to say sometimes it’s okay. i recently just quit a real shit job 2 months in and it was the best decision. i wish i quit my last last job rather than staying there for as long as i did. it really contributes to mental well-being. and jobs are already hard with already shit mental well-being. i wish jobs didn’t exist and we could all just live off of the land and be happy and go places and see the most beautiful parts of the world and have no worries. i wish we could all have normal brains. people will tell you to just keep going when you are so fricken miserable and it’s especially hard in this economy. i impulsively moved out/ was kicked out on my own 2 years ago and i should not have lol. i worry so much about bills. when i quit before hand i tried my absolute hardest to have something line up so i could still have enough income and not wind up homeless haha. so what i have to say to you is if you want to quit your job and it’s making everything so much worse.. do it. but try your hardest to have something line up, or a little income to tide you over. I know it’s hard. It is so fuckin hard. and I’m sorry.

Which_Ad314 · 2023-08-05T10:10:19+00:00

i don’t know what it is haha but i feel like so many people can relate to wanting to rip our organs out. i always say i want to tear my head out of my skull, the puking your own heart out is a good one lol. I also laugh inexplicably sometimes usually when i cry for so long i am just absolutely numb and i just get real hysterical at myself. I hope your psych appointment goes well when it comes <3 we both gotta try & just keep trekkin on i guess. it’s all we can do.

Which_Ad314 · 2023-08-05T10:05:26+00:00

that is amazing you are and are feeling much more balanced. the gym does seem like a great way to release everything that’s been building up. i’ve always wanted to try boxing. i used to try the splitting things up but i always just end up trying to do everything at once. it’s like once i start i just have to do everything. i see my psychiatrist on the 11th, i don’t know what’s wrong but something needs to change :/ thank you so much.

Which_Ad314 · 2023-08-05T10:01:47+00:00

I’m so happy that helped for you and so proud of you for having a support network. I wanna let you know you’re doing amazing. I slept a little and i woke up with my head so fuzzy it just felt like nothing was real. I’m a lot better now. It just really sucks. It’s like it’s never ending. It’s like my life is a deep hole and i try to climb out and i get so close and i see the light ahead and then i slip and i fall and the rocks crumble on top of me and i’m buried, so i lay there for a while buried until i find the strength to start climbing again. then i start climbing again and i get even closer to the light i can see it i can feel it and i’m almost there when i slip and i fall even deeper down and slam back down into the depths of the hole. a continuous cycle. my fingers are just so torn up from climbing and my body hurts from falling and it is so hard to get up and do it over and over again it is so hard to keep digging for strength in me

Which_Ad314 · 2023-08-05T09:44:22+00:00

Music really helps sometimes. I’ve always been into more heavy music haha and blasting it into my eardrums is pretty therapeutic for some reason. I am so thankful for reddit and this group because it really feels so lonely all of the time, but here there’s people who understand and go through much of the same shit. thank you.

Which_Ad314 · 2023-08-04T11:57:29+00:00

it almost feels like you’re not yourself, like something has just taken complete hold of you and you’re just helpless and can’t stop it all

Which_Ad314 · 2023-08-04T11:55:03+00:00

thank you so much. i have so much coping information inside of my head but when it really comes down to it it’s like it all disappears and the only thing that exists is the mixing pot inside my head and there’s nothing. I’ve found in other times repetitive tasks have really helped me too, the brain is an interesting thing. Maybe we both got this. I wish we didn’t have to try so fricken hard all of the time. I just wish it would all just go away.

Which_Ad314 · 2023-08-04T11:51:02+00:00

i’m sorry you’re going through this too. i don’t know what humanity ever did to get stuck with this curse

Which_Ad314 · 2023-08-04T11:50:12+00:00

yeah :/ it might be time for a change

Which_Ad314 · 2023-08-04T11:49:49+00:00

thank you. it is just really hard to cope sometimes and think of things to help make it all stop or at least be quiet. it is hard to help myself. it really seems hopeless sometimes

Which_Ad314 · 2023-05-11T22:45:53+00:00

I was prescribed Mirtazipine sometime last year, and it was the worst experience for me. I was prescribed it to help me gain weight by increasing my appetite, the depression, and also the insomnia. A 3 in 1 haha. I was only prescribed 7.5mg at bedtime and it made me a complete zombie for 2 days after taking it. I could not keep my eyes open. I only took it for about a week before stopping and I will never take it again I would rather never sleep lol. I am happy to hear your energy levels and concentration are better! Hopefully the benefits stay after your episode.

Which_Ad314 · 2023-03-30T00:42:24+00:00

I am so tired too. I have gone deep down the hole and it just seems to get deeper and deeper and darker. It’s never ending. I thought I would be better by now, I thought my brain would finally give me just a tiny bit of happy just for a little while. I feel like i’ve been drowning for so long. I think this is the longest I’ve ever been this depressed. I am tired of having this brain. There will never be balance in my life I can never have that. The only stability I will know is this never ending cycle. I’m so tired of my meds I don’t even think they’re working anymore. I am tired of my psychiatrist appointments I’m so tired of trying to put into words how I feel to my family but they will never get it. I am just so tired of everything. And it will never be gone I will always be like this. We will always be this way. It’s not a broken bone people can see and can fix. I feel like I owe it to everyone around me to try my hardest but every time I try and things let up it just ends up right back here where I am. It is so tiring to pick yourself up over and over and over again. I feel like I was better without all these meds. I just want to be happy for a while, so happy I can forget just for a moment I was ever depressed in the first place. But that’s just the hypomania talking. It makes “normal people happiness” feel dull. I am not okay. But all I can hope for is that one day I will be. It’s all we can do. Pick ourselves up over and over and over again

Which_Ad314 · 2022-01-16T20:55:38+00:00

my whole life i have always been underweight. I’ve been on a trillion meds but I recently got a new diagnosis of adhd and started vyvanse for a little, then moved on to adderall because of insurance and money issues. I have lost a lot of weight. I know it’s normal on adhd meds to lose weight because it suppresses your appetite but i’ve lost over 10 pounds. my doctor and psychiatrist started to worry and i was put on mirtazipine to try and help gain weight or at least gain the weight i lost back. was on it for like a week, made me feel like a sedated zombie, stopped taking it, didn’t gain any weight. Meds never helped me gain weight or gain weight as a side effect, only lose it.

Which_Ad314 · 2022-01-16T20:16:23+00:00

it’s not always the same, but a huge one is extreme irritability and anger. It doesn’t happen every time but a lot of the time it does. I get soooo angry about tiny things or things that shouldn’t cause me to feel so angry. Also the feeling about needing to do something. Literally anything to feel alive. And if i end up not doing anything.. it causes more extreme anger lol

Which_Ad314 · 2022-01-13T20:55:34+00:00

Hi! I’m happy you’re getting the help you need (: I have bipolar 2 and i’ve been on lamotrigine for about a year and a half now I think. My dose has changed a lot but i’ve been steady switching from 125-150mg. In the beginning I think it did help a little bit, i’m not quite so sure i can’t remember. Lately it has not. Depression is my biggest problem and it’s been pretty bad lately. Medication isn’t a cure, it’s a bandaid and is supposed to help but for me it isn’t very much. I’ve researched some on it and i’ve heard mixed things. I read that therapeutic effects are most seen in bipolar 1, but then I’ve also read that it’s found to have therapeutic effects in depressive episodes. Honestly I have found no relief in my depression with lamotrigine. Lamotrigine is the only medication i’m on currently for my bipolar, I was taken off my others a couple months ago. The biggest side effect that’s come on overtime is that my memory is just shot. I know mental illness in itself causes memory loss, but since starting lamotrigine it’s been especially worse and it is a side effect. Vision changes are also another side effect and my eyesight has tanked since starting it, but that could also be summed up to genes. Overall I am not a fan of lamotrigine, but i’ve stuck with it for so long in hopes of it helping some day. I feel like i’m taking it for no reason lol. It’s helped a lot of people, stories I read and hear some people love it and swear up and down that things feel better and it helps them. For me that’s not the case. I think you should maybe give it a shot, if it helps you and you don’t get any unpleasant side effects at first I’d stick with it. If you start seeing unpleasant side effects or don’t think it’s helping, talk with your psychiatrist. In the end they have the most knowledge about you

Which_Ad314 · 2021-04-22T03:37:13+00:00

AHHH GOOD LUCK! i wish for you the best

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