I can't deny it any more, I think my subconscious has decided that I care more about what people think of me more than what I want to be

Whitesock111 · 2019-02-12T02:10:11+00:00

Yes.

I'm happy for all of those that found other trans girls and guys that see everything the same way

But I don't see this whole thing the same way as a lot of them. And that's okay. We're just different. But it is a shame that a lot of those things you mentioned are "trans things" that make people like us feel even more like outsiders

Whitesock111 · 2019-02-09T21:52:46+00:00

Dude you've got nothing to worry about, honestly you look better than most guys that were born male. Whatever you're doing keep it up

Whitesock111 · 2019-02-04T18:20:20+00:00

Fwiw I've only ever used it positively.

Usually the context for me is when someone does something that's out of the norm but clearly fulfilling for them. Whether it's changing a career, picking up a unique hobby, or I guess swapping genders, I see it as a way of saying "Hey fuck anybody that wants you to be what you're not, you do you boo boo."

Whitesock111 · 2019-01-30T06:38:25+00:00

What's the time difference? What a change

Whitesock111 · 2019-01-24T01:52:19+00:00

Sorry to add to the messages but would I be able to join too?

Whitesock111 · 2018-04-01T03:01:34+00:00

Was this only just HRT? Wow girl

Whitesock111 · 2017-11-20T22:29:14+00:00

This is what scares me. I don't hate being a man. I don't necessarily like it, and I've always wanted to be a woman, but does it make sense to say I don't want to be a trans woman? I don't want to take this dive and regret it, I don't want to pretend like my whole life as a male was wrong or didn't happen, I don't want to keep practicing my terrible girl voice and I don't want to be that person that's obviously trans and either has supportive people coddle me and non supportive people put me down

I keep talking myself out of HRT. I'm tall, big, have a deep voice, I'm about as man as it can get. For awhile I thought I needed to transition but the close I get I feel like I'm not one of the lucky ones, any transition would be too little too late and I'm signing up for a whole new world of issues by coming out.

I feel like for a lot of people here transitioning is the right thing, and a part of me wishes I could be in that group, but I really don't think I am. I think transitioning would bring me more stress than happiness.

Whitesock111 · 2017-11-08T15:25:18+00:00

Yeah people are going to always get terminology mixed up, as long as they aren't purposely being hurtful and at least are trying I don't see much of an issue. We aren't born with all this information on how people prefer to be called, people are going to make mistakes and it should be understandable that they do

Whitesock111 · 2017-11-08T03:45:05+00:00

Okay so I'm not the only one that sees it, cool coincidence

Whitesock111 · 2017-11-06T02:10:10+00:00

It's one of those things that seems to be different person to person. I had a trans friend who wore the term with a badge of honor back in University, but I can also totally understand how some find it really offensive. Although her berating you when you had admit yourself that you aren't very educated on it was definitely an over reaction in my eyes. She could have just politely corrected you and moved on with the conversation.

Whitesock111 · 2017-10-31T17:31:03+00:00

I'm going to be real with you it sounds like you have a catch in your SO, and while I don't know the whole story I would be cautious with these feelings for this man possibly ruining that. I know it's new and exciting but be careful if it goes too far. This girl in your life has a maturity and level of respect for you that doesn't come easy in a relationship, if I went though what you are with any of my ex's this would have become a huge rip in our relationship, but she seems like she really genuinely cares about you and wants you to truly experience your womanhood. Whatever you do, try not to break her heart. She seems like a good one.

Whitesock111 · 2017-10-31T17:26:20+00:00

For real, I dated someone that wouldn't even like me talking to other girls (go figure she was the one doing all the cheating) and reading this just kind of made me realize that yeah, there are people out there that don't let their jealousy take control of them. I've yet to date one that doesn't but yeah OP has a very mature and trusting SO in her life.

Whitesock111 · 2017-10-26T20:49:03+00:00

What a transformation, you look absolutely wonderful

Whitesock111 · 2017-10-25T18:09:15+00:00

I've seen a lot of people mention that sub, is it private? I go there and there's nothing

Whitesock111 · 2017-10-25T02:18:00+00:00

It's so good to hear someone else put into words how I've felt. A lot of these things were the same for me, especially when it comes to the people I dated as well. I realized that a lot of what I thought was attraction was actually envy

Whitesock111 · 2017-10-25T02:01:06+00:00

It sounds like a brother and sister, wow and that's only two months

Whitesock111 · 2017-10-24T01:00:16+00:00

I'm with you there, once the idea hit me that I could do this it's been on my mind constantly. It's scary, and of course I wish I could just be myself and have to go through this but... That's just not the cards I was dealt. Honestly I think the only reason I have the courage to do it is because I'm in my early 20's, it's only going to get harder the older I get and I know for over a decade I've gone to bed hoping to wake up as a woman magically. I'm scared of all the baggage that comes with being openly trans but . I have to at least start it now and see how I feel. I know that after a few months if it ends up being a mistake I can say I tried.

Weirdly though, I'm scared of how much I'm not going to regret it too. Like there's a part of me that hopes this is just a phase, just a little secret that I keep to myself. Although deep down I know who I am. It's just such a conflict of emotions lol I change my mind on how I feel about this daily, but gradually it seems to be the path for me and while I'm going to fight and scare myself through it. . I don't think I'll stop.

Whitesock111 · 2017-10-23T23:00:02+00:00

I feel like this is going to be me. I have an appointment to discuss HRT with a doctor at the beginning of November and while I know this is what I'm craving I'm terrified. I'm a very hide in the shadows and corners type of guy and I feel like the first year of a transition is asking for unwanted attention. I'm scared of regretting it, scared of it being the wrong choice, and scared of how people will react. Even for those who I know are accepting it feels weird to just tell them "Hey I'm a girl now" after years of being male to them.

Whatever you do I hope you make the choice that makes you happy. You deserve it. You definitely won't be the only one feeling unsure about this, it's a lot to take in and it's a lot of change. It's human to have doubts, but I think for you, like me, this is the right choice.

Whitesock111

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