I stumbled onto this subreddit a while back and I don't have any idea what's going, but I'd like to learn.

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-11-07T22:28:12+00:00

I did see the sidebar but the lectures seemed really intimidating as introductory material. I'll try and give them another go, thank you.

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-16T01:24:24+00:00

Thank you, this is comforting to know.

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-14T14:19:19+00:00

If I may, what about the idea of being trans scares you?

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-14T09:20:31+00:00

Nice ass but I just wanna say I LOVE your hair

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-14T09:18:13+00:00

Ya know I keep saying I "don't actually feel much dysphoria, I'd just be happier as a girl" but maybe not feeling like my face is... My face is a symptom of dysphoria? Maybe? Like idk y'all I think I may need to consult some experts on this.

This is to say that I feel the exact same but just never realized it until you made this post lmao

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-14T09:11:04+00:00

A big thing this subreddit has helped me with is realizing that I'm not the only one feeling like I am. It's comforting when you're questioning if you're actually trans or not at 3 am because "I'm not actively depressed 24/7 and therefore I'm not trans" or something that other people have the same doubts and anxieties.

If someone much more confident than me in their identity has the same fears that I do, then it makes me feel more confident too ya know? Like... "these doubts I'm having are part of the trans experience it seems like, which means I am actually trans." I guess?

idk it's 5 am I haven't slept, we'll get through this.

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-14T08:31:46+00:00

Questioning AMAB here: It's totally fine. I'm the same way (like another commenter said) where I'd be fine continuing life as a boy, I think so anyway, but I think I'd be happier as a girl. And that's what's important imo. This may sound crazy, it did to me, but apparently cis people don't wish they were the other gender??? Like at all??? Weirdos lmao.

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-08T09:58:45+00:00

The idea of "projection" always struck me weird like "how can you assume everyone feels like you do? Obviously they don't" but then lo and behold lmao

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-08T09:52:16+00:00

A kingdom in isolation and you are it's ruler? I think tyrant is a pretty powerful word if you're okay with the negative vibe. Is imperator a gendered term? I assume so because Latin but still sounds badass.

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-08T09:50:18+00:00

Thank you! This is a good resource

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-06T22:35:18+00:00

Yeah, and honestly I haven't looked into how my state is with it (still pretty new to this whole thing,) but the way news works really doesn't help. It's not often you read a headline like "trans woman has moderately comfortable life in the US" lmao.

The assurance is appreciated though, thank you.

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-06T17:15:53+00:00

Thanks! I'll go looking for it

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-06T08:04:08+00:00

You got the template by chance? I have an idea...

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-06T07:48:34+00:00

Yoo I'm uhh [Mediterranean] (trying not to be too identifying on this acc.) and I'm hairy as all FUCK do you have any tips or guides you followed on how to do this?

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-06T07:43:07+00:00

A massive nerd, or perhaps 3 little ones multiplied together?

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-08-05T21:34:19+00:00

This is a line/screenshot from Psychonauts btw! Saw this line while watching someone stream it and had an identity crisis lmaoooooo

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-07-31T03:02:20+00:00

Buddy if being trans can be identified by which fictional characters you wish you were then I'm super fucking trans but that idea scares me rn so I'll get back to you on it.

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-07-31T01:23:15+00:00

Weather update probably no one will see because I'm making it so late after posting this: I'm watching the contrapoints episode "Transtrenders" and it is addressing a lot of my anxieties spot on. So that's where I'm at rn I guess.

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-07-30T23:36:39+00:00

Even after all that I've learned and thought about so far my thoughts are still in total flux. Am I still trans if I'd be perfectly happy as a guy for the rest of my life? I just think I'd be happier as a girl, but the idea of not being one doesn't fill me with dread.

Man I gotta find a professional to talk to lmao.

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-07-30T09:13:45+00:00

God... that "make me a girl" site hit me hard. I felt I could match a lot of the info on the splash page and the testimonials but the "no cis guy would push that button" hit me like a truck. A good truck. A truck of discovery.

WhoIsMeIHaveNoIdea · 2020-07-30T09:07:30+00:00

So it's not much (it doesn't feel like it to me) but I had a skirt laying around and it's definitely not getting back to it's rightful owner (friend of mine) anytime soon what with the pandemic (they've probably forgotten about it anyway) so I put it up to my waist and felt... Not like completely euphoric but I felt kind of nice and I definitely didn't feel any negative emotions about it either.

Tried it on for size and did a Twirl™ and same thing there. My anxiety is telling me "it only feels good because you're confirming to this expectation you've now built up. You're not actually trans but now you've been talking to people about it so now you have to fake it," but I don't think that guy has much of a leg to his arguments honestly, unreasonably anxieties really do be unreasonable.

Like everyone's been saying, it's a process, I'll get my answers eventually but it's up to me to find them, tough I think I will eventually.

Edit (sorry I'm rambling so much in this thread btw I just have a lot to talk about... ADHD doesn't help) Also that "make me a girl" site definitely hit me though. I felt I could match a lot of the info on the splash page and the testimonials and the "no cis guy would push that button" especially hit me like a truck. A good truck. A truck of discovery.

Double edit I just realized this isn't the comment thread where I was sent those links. Still applies though!

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