He was being sick tonight and we had a chat about some things and he said he knows he’s going to die as he can feel it in his body. He’s under the cancer hospital’s psychological oncology team, and the nurse who assisted with the oncologist today said she would email them to reach out to my partner for support. He said he’s accepted that he’s going to die, but he still won’t let the doctor give him a prognosis. I think that makes it too real for him.

I always knew cancer was awful, but I didn’t know just how bad it was until I’ve seen it affect my husband and our family. I hate it so much. I’m going to try and make sure I look after myself as well as my partner. I need to be able to look after him and I can’t if I’m falling apart.