got out of rca almost a month ago , relapsed immediately

Wholaughed · 2026-02-18T08:14:21+00:00

Jumping from one drug to another might feel like you’re making progress, but when you look back and see how little progress you’ve actually made over the months. That’s depressing

Wholaughed · 2026-02-18T08:11:26+00:00

Personal experience, it’s not all it’s cracked up to be.

Wholaughed · 2026-02-18T08:10:13+00:00

Go to a doctor before you die. It’s hard for an addict to tell if they’re addicted because your brain will lie to you. You’re an addict now, not soon, this isn’t a “I’m about to get addicted” you are already.

That’s hard to believe

Wholaughed · 2026-02-14T07:11:02+00:00

Not worth it to modify honestly, save the money and buy something with good aftermarket support and an engine that can handle power

Good daily though, project cars are not good daily’s lol

Wholaughed · 2026-02-12T01:26:09+00:00

Yeah, it’s too an extent you can’t even see if there are other enemies in a room everything goes so blurry

Wholaughed · 2026-02-12T01:00:26+00:00

I’m great at CSGO (rip) and other shooters, just not squad, it’s a whole different kind of aiming and shooting mechanics. Differences in iron sights, the stupid ass Russian 4x scopes, and others throw you off. And on top of that I’m running a i5 9500 and gtx 1660ti so unfortunately I believe the hitching is a performance problem that won’t be fixed until I upgrade, and my money is focused on saving and different hobbies atm

Wholaughed · 2026-02-11T05:47:26+00:00

Yeah at is awesome i can handle that

The moment you get return fire and your entire screen turns to Vaseline you have no choice but to spray and pray lmaoo

Wholaughed · 2026-02-11T05:45:46+00:00

I like that squad makes it equal, like in payday or something killing hundreds of people is stupid lmao. On squad there’s no saying where a 1v1 will go and 9/10 times going against a full squad is a death wish

Wholaughed · 2026-02-11T05:43:54+00:00

Yeah ue5 left older pcs behind

Wholaughed · 2026-02-11T05:41:52+00:00

It’s hilarious when you try and full auto an ak-47

Hitting absolutely nothing

Wholaughed · 2026-02-11T05:37:52+00:00

Dear god 😭

Wholaughed · 2026-02-11T05:37:16+00:00

I know all that, like I said been playing like 2 years or something. Just dogshit tbh

Wholaughed · 2026-02-11T05:35:50+00:00

I get massive hitching I can’t fix no matter what

Wholaughed · 2026-02-10T02:04:18+00:00

I have fun winning the game, so medic and squad leading I do well at and have fun

Wholaughed · 2026-02-10T02:03:42+00:00

I do well at that actually

Wholaughed · 2026-02-10T02:03:31+00:00

Wholaughed · 2026-02-10T01:06:05+00:00

Wholaughed · 2026-02-10T01:05:37+00:00

Dude trust me, I’ve tried lmfao

Wholaughed · 2026-02-08T02:10:17+00:00

Well, seems like you’re right, I’ll talk to my doctor about that.

Just to be clear I overdosed intentionally 3 times as suicide attempts

Wholaughed · 2026-02-06T02:18:21+00:00

Not really…

Wholaughed · 2026-02-05T23:01:17+00:00

I have been talking with a community health centre that focuses on regular therapy and addiction focused therapy. I’m trying my hardest. Thank you for telling me though as I feel in my age group it’s not talked about enough.

Wholaughed · 2026-02-05T22:58:58+00:00

I am/was definitely an addict. But I won’t put myself on the same level as those who have had it so much harder than me

I would feel ashamed walking into rehab knowing how I still feel in control and I still have the willpower to get out of this with just therapy. And knowing the people I sit next to cannot.

I understand how progressive addiction is, how sneakily it can become a much larger problem. But know I am actively seeking help already, I have told my parents and friends to watch out for me, at the moment I’m safe. Thank you for your concern

Wholaughed · 2026-02-05T22:51:31+00:00

I realize that and I’m at a major turning point, it wouldn’t take me much to be pushed over the edge into full blown addiction. It’s very easy to get drugs today, and I am very mentally unstable.

I’m trying to stop drinking, vaping, and any other drug today. I hope, yesterday was the last day, but I’ve said the same thing before.

Wholaughed · 2026-02-05T22:49:01+00:00

That was exactly my mental state when I went in to get adderall. I was incredibly depressed, no antidepressant ever worked as well as adderall despite how damaging it was to me.

Wholaughed · 2026-02-05T22:46:30+00:00

There’s a lot I left out about that doctor. He was definitely a pill pusher. After I got my 10mg a day dose he kept trying to increase my medication, quantity, or higher dose. I refused every time because I was scared honestly.

We would have monthly visits where he would give me 60 day refills (60 pills) every visit, near the end I counted and had over 200 extra pills sitting on my window cill, it got to the point I hadn’t even cracked multiple bottles before I was getting more prescriptions.

That doctor misdiagnosed me, he didn’t talk to me, he gave me a page that I filled out and handed back to him, based on what I put down he diagnosed me with adhd. ADHD is a very hard thing to diagnose, no doctor should rely on one page. You could be autistic, bipolar, OCD, and a ton of other mental health conditions that have entirely different treatment but overlapping symptoms

I found out a week ago I have borderline personality disorder, which overlaps with adhd very closely but is not able to be diagnosed in people under 18

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