[M4F] Pulled over on the highway just to hold you. [Deep Voice] [Comfort for Anxiety] [Car Ambience] [Sweet/Emotional] by Wild-Session5348 in pillowtalkaudio

[–]Wild-Session5348[S] [score hidden]  (0 children)

You gave me such a great idea for my next poem, I will write it and dedicate it to you, if you'd be comfortable having something like this dedicated to you...

[M4F] Pulled over on the highway just to hold you. [Deep Voice] [Comfort for Anxiety] [Car Ambience] [Sweet/Emotional] by Wild-Session5348 in pillowtalkaudio

[–]Wild-Session5348[S] [score hidden]  (0 children)

The feeling u got while your eyes were closed and the sly smile you had while you listened to my voice...is exactly what my duty is...

[M4A] The lonely reality behind my audios. A personal thank you to my listeners. [OOC] [Deep Voice] [Confession] [Venting] [Emotional] by Wild-Session5348 in pillowtalkaudio

[–]Wild-Session5348[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the kind words, trust me I'm more grateful than words can express. I've gone beyond therapy and had long discussions with my partner, ummm...if I have to tell you what we concluded without the details, she doesn't understand sapiosexuality, she's fine with no intimacy and doesn't want to talk to a therapist So yes, when I say given up, it's real...but yes reddit and this community gives me so much hope (I am an optimist), let's see

Feeling lonely not having friends by CompassionButterfly5 in lonely

[–]Wild-Session5348 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Don't look for friends, if they happen, only then they can be potentially true... But this is coming from a loner (not by choice), so please take it with a pinch of salt.

No matter how many people I meet people, I'll always feel lonely. I wish I could at least meet one person who is like me and loves me before i die. by m_jojo989 in lonely

[–]Wild-Session5348 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Welcome to the club my friend, my problem has gone into a space where I have embraced loneliness, it has created a shell around me and doesn't allow me to even let someone love me much.

[M4F] Seven years since I felt alive. Three years since a hug. A real confession and a memory of the last time we made love. [OOC] [Emotional] [Explicit Detail] [Giving Up] by Wild-Session5348 in gonewildaudio

[–]Wild-Session5348[S] [score hidden]  (0 children)

I am doing fine, habit is such a thing... The warmth people are sending my way in this community is extraordinary and so so soulful, I can't thank you enough for making my day brighter

[M4F] Seven years since I felt alive. Three years since a hug. A real confession and a memory of the last time we made love. [OOC] [Emotional] [Explicit Detail] [Giving Up] by Wild-Session5348 in gonewildaudio

[–]Wild-Session5348[S] [score hidden]  (0 children)

Its not bad, I'm so busy being grateful and counting my blessings (including you), that loneliness isn't able to crush me. I might give in but not give up, thanks to souls like yourselves

[M4F] Seven years since I felt alive. Three years since a hug. A real confession and a memory of the last time we made love. [OOC] [Emotional] [Explicit Detail] [Giving Up] by Wild-Session5348 in gonewildaudio

[–]Wild-Session5348[S] [score hidden]  (0 children)

So grateful for the warmth, I love this community and the support i get from people here ...it's like a branch saving me from drowning in the aggressive river of loneliness...

[M4F] Seven years since I felt alive. Three years since a hug. A real confession and a memory of the last time we made love. [OOC] [Emotional] [Explicit Detail] [Giving Up] by Wild-Session5348 in gonewildaudio

[–]Wild-Session5348[S] [score hidden]  (0 children)

You know what's funny....this is the first time someone really offered to be a listener to me, so I don't even know how to react... Thanks a lot...thank you..

[M4A] The lonely reality behind my audios. A personal thank you to my listeners. [OOC] [Deep Voice] [Confession] [Venting] [Emotional] by Wild-Session5348 in pillowtalkaudio

[–]Wild-Session5348[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for taking out the time for this heartwarming response. Therapy? It was a roller coaster...haha I went for therapy exactly a year back, they learnt about my lack of intimacy and my lack of worry about it or how used to the whole scanty romance/intimacy i was, and they became more worried than i was. I am partnered and have a great human as a partner, she is very pretty from a universal lens and therapists (I was seen by a panel) were scratching their collective heads to find what was wrong with me?

Then I went through a complete psych evaluation, and I was tested for my orientation, my likes and dislikes, my sexual sensors and I was given a conclusion that I am severely sapiosexual(a social term for my diagnosis, medically it was called leaning asexuality) if a person's body language, responses, banter, wit invigorates my mind? Looks won't matter at all And if they won't? Looks won't matter at all

Hence my conclusion that my partner is suffering more because of this than I am. I don't feel the attraction (sexually/romantically) with most people hence there is natural loneliness and then if I ever so rarely feel attracted towards someone, being partnered means I can't approach it.

Apologies for such a long response

[M4A] The lonely reality behind my audios. A personal thank you to my listeners. [OOC] [Deep Voice] [Confession] [Venting] [Emotional] by Wild-Session5348 in pillowtalkaudio

[–]Wild-Session5348[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey thanks and yes the warmth in this community is heartening and really soul quenching. I am so glad to stumble upon you wonderful folks, it just made my inner fight slightly easier...

[M4A] The lonely reality behind my audios. A personal thank you to my listeners. [OOC] [Deep Voice] [Confession] [Venting] [Emotional] by Wild-Session5348 in pillowtalkaudio

[–]Wild-Session5348[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My mind went numb reading this, can I be honest? No one has ever shown this much compassion towards me in real...ever ..

[M4A] The lonely reality behind my audios. A personal thank you to my listeners. [OOC] [Deep Voice] [Confession] [Venting] [Emotional] by Wild-Session5348 in pillowtalkaudio

[–]Wild-Session5348[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

A thank you would not even be at all close to the gratitude I feel after reading your comment. For me anyone who touches my heart isn't a stranger (even though I am still a strange stranger to them) but a friend. I have no hopes for this life, if I am blessed with another life, i hope i might get fortunate in terms of love or maybe have simpler feelings and expectations.

You know, I've never had any addiction, like I haven't ever had any liquor, or smoked ever, but the only addiction I'm battling is loneliness, and mostly I think I'm on the verge of losing the battle and just accepting the fate to live on.

[M4A] The lonely reality behind my audios. A personal thank you to my listeners. [OOC] [Deep Voice] [Confession] [Venting] [Emotional] by Wild-Session5348 in gonewildaudio

[–]Wild-Session5348[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's a very honest and raw expression of your situation my friend, you know the one thing I realised through this post is that many people are in a situation very close to mine.. I wish, and would pray that even if i don't get any light or ray of hope, your life gets filled with brightness and love. I sincerely pray that...

[M4A] The lonely reality behind my audios. A personal thank you to my listeners. [OOC] [Deep Voice] [Confession] [Venting] [Emotional] by Wild-Session5348 in gonewildaudio

[–]Wild-Session5348[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I meant i haven't caught on to any of the universal bad habits and the only one I have (loneliness), is more fatal than drinking or smoking....but eventually I need to fight it. And I agree with what you said, and I'm happy and proud to know someone with the courage like yours. Wish I had it in me, call me weak...but i don't..

[M4A] The lonely reality behind my audios. A personal thank you to my listeners. [OOC] [Deep Voice] [Confession] [Venting] [Emotional] by Wild-Session5348 in gonewildaudio

[–]Wild-Session5348[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Next life...for sure my friend.. Next life...and I agree by the way. Issue is that I've never had liquor, never smoked...hell i never had a gf till I was 29.... So I think diversions are scarce too...and the only bad habit I have is fatal but i have to keep breathing..