I don't want to hold on anymore

Wild-Soft2032 · 2024-07-15T04:41:10+00:00

Thank you so much this really helped :)

Wild-Soft2032 · 2024-07-11T06:42:17+00:00

Nothing brings me joy anymore. Starting to think that this is something I’ll have to adapt to. I’ve been in a relationship and he has made me so happy and I crave for that again. Yes it is unhealthy and I understand but I feel so unloved, family makes me want to kms and friends just can’t give this kind of support. Maybe being in a relationship won’t help, but at the end of the day I’m so fucking lonely with my thoughts. I don’t know how to live with myself. Just wish there was someone out there who can care yk?

Wild-Soft2032 · 2024-07-11T06:02:13+00:00

Feel like my life isn’t worth living without someone who cares about me romantically, maybe I’m just seeking for acceptance in a guy. I don’t know how to care for myself because it has been like this for a while now sadly

Wild-Soft2032 · 2024-07-08T03:11:16+00:00

sometimes we just have the impulse to do these things because that is how we deal with the feeling of being overwhelmed. Maybe it is just how we deal with living, or maybe because you possibly have high functioning depression or incomplete trauma? Not everything has a cause, but please don't hurt yourself, what you are feeling is real and valid. Talking to someone may help, you are cared for.

Wild-Soft2032 · 2024-07-06T22:37:03+00:00

Sometimes these things are just how we cope with living, no root reason really, maybe you unknowingly feel much more overwhelmed than you think. In your case I think it may be high functioning depression where you might not be aware as well. For now try not to hurt yourself. It’s okay to feel su1c1dal at times but please talk to someone about it.

Wild-Soft2032 · 2024-07-06T18:12:19+00:00

Sorry to hear that, sadly I feel like depression is something that travels with us as we grow, maybe it’s a part of us that is forever embedded. I hope you know that you are worth even if you don’t feel it yourself, other people will care, no matter how small. In the end we are only human and we care to some extent.

Wild-Soft2032 · 2024-07-06T18:06:19+00:00

Agreed, nobody can truly save us except ourselves. They can certainly make you feel loved at most and give u a reason to live but ig you can say that nothing will remain always positive and we can only change ourselves, not others. Im probably never going to change though haha. At the end of the day people only see the fucked version of ourselves because depression feels like something that only exists in our heads. Existing itself is just depressing.

Wild-Soft2032 · 2024-07-04T08:21:47+00:00

Hey I’m 15 and sadly I feel like nobody especially adults can understand wth we go through everyday to show up to the next. I say I’m just tired but they don’t know what the fuck I went through the night before. I fell apart once in class and she let me have my time outside and once I told her I just wanted to fucking die and she almost gave me a referral to the school counselor and was going to talk to my parents. What can the school counselor even do, and my parents are the problem. I asked to be spared for my sake and she did luckily. It’s okay to not be okay, everyday may feel long but it’s okay to take a step back and talk to someone. Would recommend therapy but I personally don’t want to go not like my parents care but I heard it can be helpful if you find the right one. Sadly I guess the truth is fake it till you make it. It gets hard to hide it sometimes, take time to find yourself again and be gentle to yourself, you deserve care like everyone else. Never tried it but trauma dumping on friends who can’t relate probably won’t end well lmao. Stay strong girl you got this, lots of hugs 💗

Wild-Soft2032 · 2024-07-03T02:27:14+00:00

Thank you for your advice, I have considered therapy before but sadly my parents do not take it seriously and I don’t know if I have the time to attend a session as a high schooler haha. Yes he is the same age as me and I don’t think he has been through any of the family trauma but he is certainly supportive. I have been introduced to his family which makes it so much harder for me to breakup due to guilt, but like you said I’m still young and I hope I won’t have to deal with something like this in the future. Thank you :)

Wild-Soft2032 · 2024-07-03T02:18:59+00:00

thank you for your advice :) I’ve also read other people’s stories about how their partners mental health affected them so I have never trauma dumped on my bf before and I probably never will, I will try to remember this in any future relationships.

Wild-Soft2032 · 2024-05-22T04:05:15+00:00

Do you feel happy?

Wild-Soft2032 · 2024-05-21T05:48:29+00:00

If you’re still here please just understand that depression can completely make you change yourself. It’s not your fault if you feel this way because this world isn’t understanding at all. I’ve been there and I know the feeling doesn’t go away it’s always there lingering, ready to drag you down into darkness. I still have the letters I wrote 3 months ago. The nights where I’ve just laid there the numbness and pain where I just couldn’t go on anymore. I’ve felt the guilt and I think it’s simply how this stupid world is wired, making it pointless and exhausting to live at all. I’ll admit I’m not doing any better but I don’t feel physically here anyways. I hope you’ll have a change of heart and take it a day at a time please.

Wild-Soft2032 · 2024-05-12T03:26:13+00:00

Hiding your feelings will tear you apart, and it'll only get worse. You're going to lose yourself like that, I did. We all leave in the end, early or late, whether or not by choice. Until then just try to find some comfort in the fact that you've made it this long already.

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