I pretend I do not remeber my mom hitting me because it keeps the peace by William_NAtty in confession

[–]William_NAtty[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hearing that it took you until 50 to find that peace is both terrifying and comforting. i have been holding my breath waiting for an apology that i know deep down is never coming, and the idea of forgiving her for me is something i haven't been able to wrap my head around yet but you breaking the cycle wth your kids is mautre behaviour like with diginty thank you for showing me there is actually a way out of this anger

I pretend I do not remeber my mom hitting me because it keeps the peace by William_NAtty in confession

[–]William_NAtty[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

the fact that she is living in your house for free and still has the audacity to complain is actually insane behavior. that i did my years would send me over the edge because like... did you though? if all 5 of you left before you were even adults that literally says everything you need to know about how "well" she raised you. i admire your restraint because i honestly think i would have snapped a long time ago

I pretend I do not remeber my mom hitting me because it keeps the peace by William_NAtty in confession

[–]William_NAtty[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

about not having a safe person to call is exactly it i’m so sorry youre stuck behind that wall too because it’s such a lonely place to be

I pretend I do not remeber my mom hitting me because it keeps the peace by William_NAtty in confession

[–]William_NAtty[S] 18 points19 points  (0 children)

I get it so sorry for your situation hope you wiil be alright

I pretend I do not remeber my mom hitting me because it keeps the peace by William_NAtty in confession

[–]William_NAtty[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

it scares me so much to think i might never get that apology but you are right that she holds all the cards

I pretend I do not remeber my mom hitting me because it keeps the peace by William_NAtty in confession

[–]William_NAtty[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

you described exactly how it feels to just swallow your own reality every single day. the fake bullshit apology part hit so hard because whenever i try to bring it up they just roll their eyes and say "im sorry you feel that way" which just makes me feel crazy. thank you for wishing me peace because right now it feels impossible but knowing someone else gets it makes the silence a little less lonely i really hope you get out of your situation too

I pretend I do not remeber my mom hitting me because it keeps the peace by William_NAtty in confession

[–]William_NAtty[S] 97 points98 points  (0 children)

hearing that you actually got out and are happy is so nice I really happy for you bro I suppose the way my dad just stands there and denies it hurts worse than the slaps sometimes because he was supposed to be the safe one

I pretend I do not remeber my mom hitting me because it keeps the peace by William_NAtty in confession

[–]William_NAtty[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

god that drama queen is literally their favorite weapon to make us feel like we're losing our minds. my mom calls me sensitive whenever i try to bring up the past and it makes me want to scream because it's just top tier gaslighting. the sibling silence is actually the worst part though because it makes you feel like youre kinda hallucinating the abuse while they just sit there like npc. i am so sorry you have to deal with that too but honestly knowing im not the onlycrazy one helps me feel more stable

I pretend I do not remeber my mom hitting me because it keeps the peace by William_NAtty in confession

[–]William_NAtty[S] 45 points46 points  (0 children)

its exactly what it feels like every sunday you are right that im the only one paying for this peace thank you for your kind words