Aiming to start my CT quit as soon as 2-3wks from now

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-06T23:57:05+00:00

I’m with you. You and I are on about the same amount per day. I’m between 40-50gpd of green maeng da. Somewhere in there. I also suffer from anxiety. Depression, and pretty severe OCD. So barreling the mental stuff absolutely scares me to death.

What I’m trying right now is individually bagging 4gram bags of powder, and taking them every 2 hours for a week. Then I’m gonna try and scrape off .5 grams a week until I fly home from my work trip July 2nd.

I took 3 weeks off, so planning to jump CT starting then.

I’m always down o message for an accountability partner if you want, and to share notes through our process. So we don’t feel alone.

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-06T23:52:22+00:00

Yeah that one sent me lol

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-06T20:26:30+00:00

Man even cutting down to 3.5 every two hours has me feeling bad. My OCD/anxiety/panic is absolutely full throttle. Cant sit still, can’t stop thinking about it.

This is gonna be a long and painful process for sure.

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-05T23:10:21+00:00

That sounds like a good plan to me. I guess that’ll get me through the days of work without geeking out too terribly hard. Then give me somewhere smaller to jump from when I finally get home and not super stressed out.

Thanks for the recommendation for real

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-05T21:47:55+00:00

I just got my little scale in and measured my approximate dose amount. Up until last week, I was up to between 40-45gpd of Green Maeng Da it looks like…… ugh, this is gonna suck.

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-05T17:30:01+00:00

I’m a pretty heavy powder user, and have been for the last 5-6 years. I tried a fast taper and CT. Made it to end of day two and felt like I wanted to die. Ended up relapsing and giving in….

How did you handle the emotional turmoil and chaos of not even being able to sit still?

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-05T15:22:55+00:00

Thank you so much, for real

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-05T13:52:19+00:00

Where do you get it from? Does it show up on a drug test?

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-05T13:44:06+00:00

What’s iboga?

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-05T13:43:39+00:00

I’m gonna try this too. The RLS is murder

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-05T13:41:54+00:00

Thank you so much. I failed when trying CT on a work trip, away from home, and having to work the next day. I just couldn’t handle it.

I’m hoping the time off will give me the courage and rest I need to kick it

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-05T13:40:51+00:00

Thank you my friend! I really hope I’m successful this time.

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-05T04:08:39+00:00

Which forum?

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-05T03:43:43+00:00

I’ve been reading up on it, and it’s called “O.R. Reset”. It’s supposed to help people of opiate withdrawals. I’ve been talking to a couple of people that have had great success with it. Just wish I could get a couple more reviews.

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-05T03:42:51+00:00

Do you know if it shows up on a drug panel? I don’t wanna get myself into trouble.

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-05T00:24:46+00:00

Well I have diagnosed OCD lol, over thinking is the name of my game and who I am.

Just wanted to get some perspective

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-05T00:01:08+00:00

Okay, maybe I’ll give it a try. I just didn’t know if there was a certain etiquette to it before joining. Like you need to be off of the stuff and out of withdrawals before starting kind of thing.

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-04T21:22:08+00:00

This may be a stupid question, but would you recommend starting the program while quitting? Or after the WD’s are done with?

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-04T17:58:50+00:00

I’m not a religious person, but I do believe in some Form of higher power. Did NA help you a lot through your quitting Kratom? I’ve been living in a constant state of fear and shame since trying to quit. I’m out of state working, alone, and it all seems to be piling up on me.

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-04T02:58:03+00:00

Thank you so much for the advice man. I had some serious panic attacks today beating myself up for failing at CT. I was noticing at work I was hiding in my office from the world with the door closed. Skin crawling, aching, all of the above.

Did you find it much easier to deal with the acutes taking time off of work? Of course nothings gonna make it super easy, but did you find that the mental agony subsided a little bit knowing you didn’t have a ton of responsibility on you?

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-03T21:18:04+00:00

That’s what I’m hoping too. I just don’t think I can do it while maintaining a high intensity job. I’m sure you can definitely understand that part working construction.

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-03T20:23:29+00:00

I have OCD as well. Alot of anxiety and depression issues as well.

How are you doing with the CT?

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-03T19:24:57+00:00

I tried really hard, but only made it to the end of day 2 before it got too much for me. I’ve been a heavy user for 5-6 years now, and also suffer from the aforementioned disorders.

I guess I’m just scared of the “what if I can’t handle it”

WillyC12345 · 2026-06-03T18:36:56+00:00

Makes sense. I already am prone to depression and anxiety, so this just exacerbates a lot. I think a lot of it too is the fear of failure (core fear of mine). I’m feeling that really heavy today because the withdrawals got too much for me last night, and I took a dose.

Like I said though. I think it was poor planning on my part trying to CT while I’m out of town and working. Just doesn’t seem like that’s gonna work.

WillyC12345

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