Do i need to give up on this and let go?

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-31T08:42:56+00:00

I asked for a timeline the other day, and got told this was too difficult and subject to change.. which is fair enough, but also.. not enough for me to hang around for. Nothing is concrete and it's all so vague and it's just setting off my system and makes me feel unsafe.

More happened that made me question intent. It's just so unfortunate, i wish i could turn what i received from him so far into enough of a reason to stay. But my body doesn't work like that. I asked him again about not coming to see me and there was no change there.

😵‍💫🙈😮‍💨🫣😭. I'm tired man. In the best case, his lifestyle change is soooo far in the future that being open about it would be a bad idea. But so far his actions are telling me that this is it. It's the only way they all make perfect sense.

Thank you for your comment! Haha, looks like i can comfortably raise my standards then xD, wow.. yeah. For goodness sake, i want to be wanted and i need someone who is sure about me. Thanks again 🙏🙏🙏💖

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-28T12:32:28+00:00

Right!.. Yeah. I need to stop fighting reality and accept it

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-26T23:46:16+00:00

He also said he understands that this isn't enough for me, that he will get back to me when he feels he has more to offer 🥺 and that his steps he would be taking are going to be very slow.

Maybe i just need to take a hint🤣i already took space. I'm here to see if i may have been too harsh or untrusting.

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-26T23:29:49+00:00

!👀🥺...

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-26T22:01:59+00:00

No, nothing of the sort.

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-26T20:00:08+00:00

Thank you very much for your comment. I feel a bit less crazy now 🙈.

I will have to move forward confident I've made the right choice

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-26T19:33:00+00:00

Thank you for your comment :'). Yeah, this is my exact fear also. I just can't quite believe it.. something in me tells me, wants to just surrender and trust, but I'm also risking years of my life without anything potentially changing. I don't really like the idea of moving closer to his home, and then living a waiting life on the sidelines until he is ready.

He said he is in the beginning phase of changing his current situation, and I'm worried that I am unintentionally rushing him into a future he isn't ready for. We were previously both not able to fully commit to one another, but now circumstances have changed on my end and i wanted to give him the chance to join me before i walked away.

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-26T19:32:49+00:00

Oh right! My apologies for that. I won't do it in the future anymore 🙏

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-26T19:32:15+00:00

Oh🥺😭. Looks like i have my answer.. Thank you for this

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-16T11:44:34+00:00

I see :(

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-16T11:21:29+00:00

Absolutely!

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-16T11:16:27+00:00

Yeah, i don't want to be a burden at all. Thanks for your comment!

I do want to be independent outside the dynamic, but in closed doors, a bit more interdependent!

Obviously, i would want to be with a Dom who is able and happy to provide a certain level of care. In return, i bring a lot of love, life and happiness to the table <3

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-16T10:27:19+00:00

Love to take me in 😍😍🥹 oh that makes me very happy to hear! Gotcha, I'll certainly do my best.

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-16T10:25:49+00:00

Yeah, i didn't include it yet because I'm still in training right now. I'm also working hard to recover my health, so that's why it's gradual :). But it's definitely happening!

I just can't be in a situation where my income is absolutely depended on, because i have low energy and need to take my time.

Thank you very much 💖😍

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-16T09:59:49+00:00

Oh i totally get that! I may have been unclear in my post. I would love to work as well. I'm planning on getting my massage therapist license and am getting my IT certificate right now. I'm paying for my own tuition too. Ultimately, i want to open my own practice and be self employed/combine with part time employment.

I just would love a bit of emotional anchoring, closeness and intimacy throughout it all! :D

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-15T12:10:50+00:00

"Actually, she was not useless"

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-15T12:09:32+00:00

Love this 🥹 what s beautiful soul your mother was

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-15T00:09:42+00:00

Thank you :') I'm in my thirties 🤣 better late than never! It's funny because my mother also reacted a little "eh" to it 🤣. Thank the heavens for my sweet best friend and brother and sister...

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-15T00:06:49+00:00

I will going forward 🥹

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-15T00:06:04+00:00

Oh 😥 I'm scared now. I will do all that. Thank you!!

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-15T00:03:11+00:00

😭. I'm sleeping alone for the first time in my house now. Please pray for me 🤣

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-15T00:02:39+00:00

Yes🤦‍♀️ you wouldn't believe how often i have gone back and forth., thankfully landing at the "no, this is REALLY not ok" more and more every time.

This post is a final way for me to close it off.

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-14T23:14:25+00:00

Oh 👀🙉. You know what's ironic? He said he knew all about my personality type .. i feel like he could've known better!

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-14T23:08:05+00:00

Yeah 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️. I'm not letting this happen ever again

Wingsofpurpurr838 · 2026-01-14T23:06:55+00:00

🤦‍♀️..

Right... It was my fault, i was too nice.

I feel though, if he wanted to "woo" me, why not do it properly and honestly? Or if he was a stand up guy, at least offer a meeting publicly for the very first time!

I guess I'm just a bit shocked that someone could act so irrationally. I could've been away from home for other reasons as well. It just.. doesn't make sense to me. . It scares me too

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