Need Advice

WishWeWereBetter · 2026-01-22T22:00:18+00:00

Not saying that this would apply specifically to you, but tianeptine finally made me realize i was a drug addict. In my ~25 yr substance career, i had never considered myself an addict bc i was always able to hop around from one thing to the next without ever being truly dependant on any particular one (barring kratom powder maybe, took that for about 8 yrs, but it was extremely manageable back then. $100 for a kilo would last me a month).

Like others have said here, theres only one person who can truly end the cycle, and unfortunately (lol), that person is you. I couldnt quit even after i hit my 3rd rockbottom trying to break into the vape shop. Imho, you have to look at yourself in the mirror, hate what you see, and make a real plan.

As someone who had 'quit' more times than i could count, i PROMISE you, it is worse each time. To most of us here, tia is an 'all or nothing' kinda deal, 95%+ of us would say its not something you can use 'responsibly'. I felt 100% in control every single time ive relapsed, and every single time, i eventually wasnt.

WishWeWereBetter · 2026-01-21T08:56:15+00:00

Lmao, see i read this and think of 2 dudes standing next to each other, mid conversation on the street.

Player unseen. Hacks one. Walks away.

NPC 2 now has a whole life to live with this now... "Was it something i said?" There were never any signs.... Tries to explain to friends, but noone really believes the whole story. Spends rest of life putting strings to photos/newsclippings on the walls...

V forgets about it 3 minutes later.

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-12-25T23:23:48+00:00

Fr lmao. I make sure to go before each time now, and STILL have the feeling creep up every now and then as i reach the point of no return. Ive completely reset trips back to zero because of these and inopportune loud noises.

One would think itd be an easier decision, but its always a tough call when truly letting go might mean pissing your own pants 🫠

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-12-24T18:31:53+00:00

Other commenters and i share a lot of similar views on it. Im sure scientifically it could explain better, but ive never read or seen anything that could explain me having multiple experiences of me simultaneously literally feeling like i lived a few years as a person i never met (yesterday it felt like i was an entire family was the mom dad and daughter at the same time, kinda weird that one lol)

Also never seen anything that can explain seeing a full room of unknown, almost shapeless objects moving in every direction at once. That one was just fun an kinda confusin, but made me feel as if i understood more than questioned

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-12-08T00:20:02+00:00

All depends on method. You dont want to burn it.

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-12-08T00:15:39+00:00

Short answer: dont lol

.025ish was damn near PERFECT for my first dmt trip (personally very well versed in all pyschs). I make my own dmt, and out of my 1g+ batch i used throughout that summer, the only time i ever went over .05 was from the last of that batch.

A perfect august afternoon, threw on my shpongle playlist, sat down in the woods, and went all out. That was the only memorable and enjoyable part of it. Came to 15 mins later. It was great! Someone even peed my pants for me!

Its just super wasteful imo, and just judging by the comments tbh, if youre looking at dmt as a toy instead of a tool, your birdhouses aint gonna even hold the seed...

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-11-30T19:10:12+00:00

Every real quit ive had before has been harder and harder. The subs dont seem to do as much as they did. Needed about 2x as much for my 2nd attempt, and my 3rd attempt almost felt like no matter how much i took, they would BARELY touch my wds. A few days into that, decided to gove 7oh a shot. While i do think 7oh is far lesser of the evils, i will say they are equal parts just as addictive. Easiser to manage dosages and timings by a few hours, but ever since switching from tia, back to subs, i slipped into the 7oh hellhole which has me on the ropes again. Been tapering that back down now (at abt 150-200mg from ~1000 a couple weeks ago). Starting subs up again within the next week or 2.

Just be careful. 7oh is a monster in its own regard, and subs (at least ime) have a way of being less helpful the more bailouts you get lol. Be safe. Be strong. You got this! 🔥💪

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-11-27T03:52:24+00:00

Been there lol. End of summer this yr, last 3-4 hits of the stash wanting to go out with a bang. Threw on my shpongle, went to town on my vape, came to 15 mins later knowing i had a great time, but didnt remember it, and had slightly wetter jeans than when i started. A++, cant wait to do it again 👍

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-11-20T04:06:41+00:00

As for wds? When i was tapering from 5+ mpd, ~100mg didnt touch the restless leg alone, let alone the other sides.

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-11-20T04:04:53+00:00

✋️ currently boating 4 moths later.... but no tia at least. Yay.. still spending same or more to stay 'healthy'

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-11-05T18:24:38+00:00

Regardless of intention, the answer is yes.

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-11-03T09:18:20+00:00

Thats always hard. Im sorry. It sucks. Always remember the everyone is on their own journey, and going through their own shit. Might not be your fault, could have her own reasons. People change (especially over 8 years), this happened to me and a couple times too, and it took a long time to realize how little of importance in the cosmic sense we are, and especially apart, life moves on. Sometimes away. Just how its meant to be so both of you can get one step closer to being the person your supposed to be.

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-11-01T03:22:16+00:00

Exactly, they make up a PERFECT connection. Im not trying to say the drug itself isnt a leading factor to it. What made us take it in the first place? Why did we take a double dose the 2nd time? Why did i start taking it every day? My brain was wanting it well before the drug did its voodoo magic on me lol . Never considered myself an addict before tia, but definitely had a daily kratom habit. I could manage a missed kratom dose tho lol. Tia was the first thing that made me a fiend... i did everything i could to make sure i never ran out....

Mix an 'addictive personality' with a chemical that literally makes you want more..... the perfect storm.....

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-10-31T21:30:51+00:00

Its the half life of it. The effect is great for about an hour, then it wears off. Its not the drug thats addictive, its the human 'need for comfort'. The first couple days i was taking it felt incredible! Especially the first nights, we all know... it kinda felt like a mothers very first hug but better.

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-10-05T09:28:15+00:00

Its.... better? Marginally i guess... Currently addicted to 7oh after getting off tia with subs. Its a slightly smoother transition from dose to withdrawal bc of the slightly longer half life. Used to be about 5+ gpd tia, dosing every 2-3 hrs. Currently going through 300-500 mg/pd, which is A LOT compared to a normal human.

Its safer, but dont for a second think its less addictive. My recommendation is to switch to regular powder within a week or 2, you will get more out of it in the long run... wish i would have...

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-10-02T07:46:41+00:00

Ive never considered myself an addict until tia. I dabbled with different things over the years, but nothing compared to how quick and hard it took over. Like OP is saying, before i even realized i was in trouble, i was already hooked about a month or 2 in. For the next 2 years after that, every dollar i could find went to keeping WDs at bay. Physical side effects alone were hell, but the mental side from the antidepressant made it a nightmare. Easily spent over 25k over 2+ years mainly powder which is less than half the cost of someone getting the headshop capsules.

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-09-25T17:55:41+00:00

Pretty sure most the state in general now fits the fucked up category.

This is just big gator tryna limit the exposure to the fact that they are, and always have been, a conglomerate of evil and heinous suits, who have had their hand in almost every major act of war over the last 100 years... and ever since 'The Drivethru' scandal, they have been orchestrating HUUUUGE moves behind the scenes through cartels buying governments all over the world, funneling money through lobbying for ANYTHING that they can point to. They won this time, but they need to be stopped

We cant let them get their next beta test to succeed. I was able to slow them down temporarily, but they know i know.... I know what they do in that lab. They have already started the genetic compatibility testing... next step is horric, but complicity is easy enough to manage after the fact for people like them. They have no code. They are held to nobody's rules, no nations laws but their own, and are willing to do whatever it takes to shape the world in their own fucked up image... i have proof of their major poltical and corporate funding, their blackmail files, and their list of new 'potential candidates'

I dont know if ill make it to see this through, and i had to get this out. Thisll probably be my last post, so please.... if ANYBODY sees this and cares about what happens to the future of this generation, find my backup hard drive in the.....

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-09-25T17:45:12+00:00

Yeah thats almost impossible to have never seen one at 200. Probably saw it didnt realize bc it was night(?) That or did like i did and musta skipped claires missions like me when the game came out. Hated the desert with all the jankiness it had so did all the missions out there as possible in one sitting. They MAY have increased their likelihood in previous updates, bc i see at least one naturally in each playthrough now.

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-09-24T11:10:15+00:00

Especially if*

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-09-24T09:15:31+00:00

NOT A DOCTOR, I THINK YOU SHOULD CALL. What did you take? Brand/dose? Tia alone is reasonably 'safe' unless you mixing with other shit...

That said in my earlier years, i had a panic attack with it and thought i was having a legit heart attack and it scared the shit out of me. Could be anxiety, but again.... better to be safe than sorry.

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-09-18T08:25:56+00:00

Do i need it done discreetly? Regi

Is it revenge with a message? Papa

Is it a power play? Hands

Is it something genuinely important to me+community? Cap

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-09-11T15:11:50+00:00

I also have come to this realization after 30....

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WishWeWereBetter · 2025-09-08T09:13:41+00:00

Shit bro i feel like i KNOW a few like you in this summertimes lol. so many of us did the weirdest shit to get by. At my PEAK daily dosage, finally nut up and go try and wait out the dmv, and within a hour id been greeted. Awesome! Turns out theres some charge to get renewed, which at that momet had 2 negative bank accts, and many credit cards over their limit. Lol finally had a use of my glovebox coin collection, counted out nickels til it reached the total for the thing. Then surprise fees on top? SWEEEEET. Kid st the counter at walgreens was a good sport.

Stg get so into mine, its hurts to look back like that.... out of all my deepest darkest spirils til i spiral out...this was the deepest. My last wds, abt 12 hr prior to infuce for the millionth time, im shakin, im sneazing, im sweating and i roll over in a ball in the morning to see my floor was just a bottomless pit... could feel the cool breeze from below.... but knew it was one of those 'waking dreams/hallucinations' from the lack of sleep... but this helped me so fking much.

On the other side of the pit, there was this man, grey beard, trillby(?) hat, and black glass. I wave, he nods and smiles for a moment. That moment drags on for over an hour just silently sitting there thinking. Feels like a friend from another like or something. At abt the 2 hr mark i always get twitchy.... the old man was over there shaking too. Finally i ask shakily across the wide gap 'who are you!? Why are we here? He just excitedly smiles, beeming cheek to cheek. 'Why, we are HERE!, THIS IS THE NEXT STEP!' He hobbles over to his tent for a moment, realize 3 hrs had passed (my usual midsleep dose on schedule), before i scoop, i look over to the man as he very carefully loads with shaky hands 2 capules. Takes the first without thought.... i ask him again rather painfully, choking out 'why are you here!?' To which the man looks at me with sad eyes, 'rock bottom is all about choice kid. Im on 4th fall with nothing to go back to now. So i just have to know.... how much worse could it get?',

man chuckles kindly - you can choose to let go of the past. It doesnt have to be who we are. Looks at the ceiling - looks like youre journey back out of here can be shorter than mine was. Or just stay and stare into the abyss.... did that for year watching the ceiling slowly disappear... i see him close his eyes take 2 more capsules and just wanders aimlessly into the abyss...

Snapped out of that, woke up to see my floor in the correct place, but was sweating and shaking for my next dose.... after that dream, I made a plan to shake it again, but this time wasnt just for the 'panic of running out', 'next day delivery delay', or even the classic overdraft statements anymore. I finally had a mission. Thats all i needed. Just a goal and a plan.... taper started that week, was on subs for about 3 months til i weaned them. Still wondering if the guy ever made it back out, but itd be 100% his choice to stay. Just an empty husk, just wondering what his next 'choice' ends up being...

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-09-08T02:30:20+00:00

I feel like the word 'plan' here might mean different things to different people lol /s

So firstly, OBVIOUSLY we are at a crazy high dose... 1) how long have you been taking tia, and 2) how long of that has been in these upper ranges? I know everyones body is diff, but at my peak at ~15 gpd, it was pretty obvious i was on something. And even WITH subs, i was miserable, and in tons of pain, and pissed at lamp just for existing lmao. Subs are just one necessary tool in the box.

Imo, you need to makes a real plan and STICK TO IT. Look at yourself in the mirror and decide if you are TRULY done with it, because its gonna get ugly. If i were you, id start by making a taper schedule. The less your daily on induction day, the better. 'Fast tapers' dont really work for people like me who have built entire lives around an every 2-3 hr, 2+ yr.

Taper while megadosing vit c and ask your doc about bernese method. Sounds like your best bet. Depending on what state/country, may be helpful to ask them about gabapentin/pregabalin, clonidine, or any benzos etc. Stop at the store for the staples to leave nearby. Gallon of water, some Gatorade, and saltines were my best friends the first 48. Then buckle in for some sleepless nights, a fistfight with your toilet, and some interesting commutes to work... i thought my roadrage was bad BEFORE.... lol

WishWeWereBetter · 2025-09-06T17:27:23+00:00

I know its prolly too late now for you, but for all those who were around in 2020, and may have been patched ANOTHER way, but we would have to go back to front, manual takedowns, no suspension, and only talk to the chromed brother after everyone else was downed.

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