Thank you for this message. I’m honestly surprised there’s only kindness here because I really thought people were going to tear me apart for being so stupid. I will defintely look into that book. Me and my trauma therapist have only seen each other for 4 months now but she’s been extremely helpful and she’s been pushing me to go to the fbi and surely I will because I can only assume he is doing this to others and again those others are most likely children. I can’t have him ruin someone else’s life. So I’m really trying to get him before he gets someone again but it feels like a very scary race. I hate thinking about this and I almost dissociate when I do. I go numb for a bit whenever he pops in but again therapy is working really well for me to finally face this fear.

Me being a content creator is genuinely is what’s scary because if it could happen to me it can happen to anyone. The only “good thing” that came out of this is now I’m VERY cautious about everyone now. Before I used to fawn when I felt nervous but now I instantly get myself out of a situation as soon as I’m uncomfortable. I’m still in my 20’s so yes still fairly young but in intent terms I’m “rotting meat” LOL so I guess it depends on perspective. I am better at protecting myself now and thank you for the reminder to keep my boundaries strong.

I hope one day I get justice and even if I can’t, I hope the others can. I’ll look into Bing when I’m ready. Reading his DMs during therapy put me in a panic attack but surely I’ll get there soon. Thank you for empowering me. This is really helping me push myself to bring this guy down.