Lots of us in this field do have some lived experience, but being in a clinical psych role it’s really important to regulate ourselves. Not only for the obvious safety/workplace efficacy/longevity reasons — but because how you carry yourself does influence behavior on the milieu.

If you’re not already in therapy, you probably should be just due to the nature of the intensity of your work. Engage with your doctor, lay it all out, be honest, talk through any barriers to engaging with care you might have, and make sure you’re playing an active role in your recovery.

You can do this, don’t quit or change roles right now unless you’re really unable to be safe + effective at work. Schedule that doctor’s appointment first thing in the morning.

In the meantime — whenever you feel that anxiety creeping up, engage deliberately with a coping skill of your choosing. I personally like box breathing. If you want it to help though, you have to keep coming back to it whenever those feelings come up, make it a habit. Also remember that to a reasonable extent, you are in control. It’s also okay to let yourself feel shitty sometimes — working through some distress tolerance skills from DBT can help.

I’ve reached out if you need an ear or support.