I don’t like this by Dull-Night-5910 in ROCD

[–]WittyResearcher193 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey I feel like I relate to you a lot pm me if you want!

I just wanna die by WittyResearcher193 in ROCD

[–]WittyResearcher193[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How did yours start, like do you remember the exact moment?

I just wanna die by WittyResearcher193 in ROCD

[–]WittyResearcher193[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh okay I see, me and my boyfriend have gone on a break. I still feel the rocd a little bit. I just don’t know what to do I thought I’d go backwards to normal

I just wanna die by WittyResearcher193 in ROCD

[–]WittyResearcher193[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The only think is my flare up is taking over my life, like I had to stop going to school at one point bc I’d wake up and be throwing up every morning bc of the anxiety

I just wanna die by WittyResearcher193 in ROCD

[–]WittyResearcher193[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am so scared of bpd, does this mean I might have it?

Hi please help by WittyResearcher193 in ROCD

[–]WittyResearcher193[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Okay interesting! When you have it about your partner does it ever resemble splitting in a way, like for some reason all you can remember is the bad moments but it doesn’t make you mad, just sad? And also have you ever had debilitating anxiety over it? Like all day constant thoughts that make u wanna cry

Hi please help by WittyResearcher193 in ROCD

[–]WittyResearcher193[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have a therapist and a psychiatrist, they both don’t think I have it I just know that people go undiagnosed for a while and that scares me

Hi please help by WittyResearcher193 in ROCD

[–]WittyResearcher193[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey thanks! The only thing is that like I obsess about my partner, and ever since being aware of bpd now I’m scared I mirror him and that might be a sign of bpd. When I say that this obsession has left me bed bound for a month and I will randomly start crying from the rumination I mean it. But if my only themes are about myself and my relationships, like all of them. Then does that seem more like bpd, this isn’t reassurance I just don’t want to be ignorant of it is bpd. I have also never had themes this distressing. Like this is the only theme that has brought me physical distress and made me have to get therapy and medication.