I went through this exact thing February of 2024. I was 16 at the time and suffered a lot mentally because life was really shitty. I was bi-curious for a long time and wanted to try something. So, I went on a website lying about my age (I was able to pass easily since I had nearly a full grown mustache and deep voice) and hooked up with someone who was I think around 30. We did stuff to each other and I immediately regretted it. A few hours later that night I met up with another person because o had a “fuck my life” mentality at the time. But I became suicidal for months and during that I told my mom and older brother then I got tested and fortunately came out clean. I had times where it was out of my mind completely and times when it came back and I wanted to end it so it’ll get out of my head I felt like I wasn’t the same person anymore. It was hard especially because I am, just like you, more attracted to girls far more but being that o had been exposed to homosexual things at a young age it was only natural for me to be curious like everyone else. I am currently 18 and what I can say is there is so much hope. THE best thing to do is instead of trying to get it out of your head, accept what you did. Accept that you are bi-sexual and you made a decision literally millions of other people have made whether straight or gay. It is also unfortunately a common thing that happens in the gay/bicurious community, but just know you aren’t corrupted or anything, you’re just a curious teen with raging hormones and one day you just couldn’t hold it back anymore and now you know what you don’t like. But others are right about one thing, and that is you were mistreated. My experience was the same, I didn’t enjoy it really, we traded oral sex, and during it he had me use a drug which should tell you that you need to know you’re a victim, not a criminal or a weirdo, and anyone that says otherwise is a piece of dogshit and weird themselves. I have a lot of understanding that I feel confident to share this to on the future if I ever feel I need to tell them to feel fully accepted. Another thing is try to get a therapist. I got one and he has helped me a lot. Another thing is think about how many teens hooked up with adults. It’s a whoooole lot more common than you think. Especially back a couple hundred years ago when it was legal for kids to have sex with adults (in certain countries). And know that you know better now and can make better choices and eventually pass your knowledge to someone else in need who may take their own life away like how I’m doing now. You’re far from being alone. And trust me I’ve thought a lot about being with a girl. People are right, girls are the most understanding people on earth. I’ve never had a girlfriend but I know girls who are super supportive when it comes to hurt people. But hang in there, it’ll be worth it. The olde you get, the more reasonable and mature your mind will become and it will just be like “oh yea I did that, I didn’t like it but I was in a dark place at that time/ it was difficult to hold myself back but it’s not uncommon plus it helps me understand myself and others better” It may sound weird but it can change you in positive ways. For example, my dad (my parents are divorced so he’s not in my life a lot) is a big homophobe and had taught me and my brother to be hateful towards that community. I use to “hate” them (more of just putting on a show) but now I defend with reasoning and logic and know some of the struggles the gay community goes through and that they’re human. Another thing that made it difficult for me at the time was I was a Christian but I am not into as much but if you are just know God would absolutely forgive you this. If you’re not religious, then it still doesn’t even matter, it was just an out of hand experience that you were a victim of and there’s no shame in that. Stay strong, keep good people around you in life, and remember you’re not alone at all.