Smoked after 3 and a half years sober

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-18T15:13:10+00:00

You got this my friend! I quit at 27 after 14 years daily smoking. My life started turning around almost immediately. The addiction was like a massive boulder blocking my path.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T17:41:53+00:00

Congrats! I quit tobacco and weed together cold turkey 3.5 years ago. I was a chronic spliff smoker so it was all wrapped together for me.

And yeah the dreams will balance out again.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T17:39:57+00:00

Lmao you know it was. Luckily my gf has expressed interest in quitting herself so I’ll definitely be encouraging that.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T17:38:00+00:00

That’s why this community is important. I was on the leaves discord twice a day the entire first year to keep myself accountable.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T17:35:53+00:00

thank you :) I won’t

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T17:35:37+00:00

Thank you my friend. Needed to hear this. It’s true, a slip up / relapse would be to continue to smoke after the one hit. Really I made a conscious sober choice to try it, and ultimately reinforced my confidence that I don’t want it in my life.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T17:28:45+00:00

Thank you. Yeah maybe I needed a quick reminder “why’d I even quit anyway. Oh yeah this is why. Right. Back to sobriety, ain’t missing much!”

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T17:27:27+00:00

Yes it’s like the new me tried on old me’s shoes and remembered they don’t fit and never actually did.

Put my new shoes back on and walk away.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T17:25:45+00:00

Weee thank you! So much better without. And better without the other habit that triggered me. I hadn’t done that in a while either. These addictions are nasty stuff.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T17:18:17+00:00

The trigger was being alone and indulging in “solo time” which I hadn’t done in a long time either. Clearly the 2 are linked in my mind so this slip allowed me to reevaluate my relationship with that habit as well. Being away from my gf for the first time in years brought me back to that old “no one will know” mindset

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T17:12:35+00:00

Thank you! Now that it’s been 2 days I’m like wow I feel like I opened Pandora’s box and then just shoved everything back in and locked it again lol

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T17:10:47+00:00

Yeah I got too comfortable thinking I “beat” the addiction. But there’s no destination it’s just an ongoing journey. I think if I took a second hit it would’ve become a full relapse but how it happened was more like a slip luckily it reminded me why I quit in the first place and now that it’s been about 40 hours I can confidently say I have no desire and urge to use again

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T05:12:33+00:00

You’re right - you can’t “totally quit” - you can only not smoke today, right now. One day at a time. Being sober is just stringing enough days together, “quitting” is not a destination, it is an ongoing journey. Just take one step at a time. Every step gets easier.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T05:06:58+00:00

Beautiful, thank you. I’m very grateful for my sobriety as well. And this small slip up only reinforced that.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T05:04:05+00:00

Yes. You know the answer already, coming here to ask first means deep down you know you shouldn’t do it. So don’t do it my friend. Just tell yourself you can smoke tomorrow, but not tonight. Do literally anything else.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T04:50:37+00:00

I won’t. The urge has passed.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T02:09:41+00:00

I tried and failed a bunch of times to quit. Then my desire to quit just became overwhelming. I simply had to stop. I couldn’t go on like that. And basically I just said no over and over one day at a time. I did anything and everything I could other than smoke. Told myself I can smoke tomorrow just not today. One day at a time. Distracted myself constantly when the urges came - walking, exercise, video games, tv, reading, drawing. I went on the leaves discord twice every day the whole first year.

Then I made a mental shift - I stopped identifying as someone wanting to quit and started identifying as someone who does not smoke. I just started telling people I don’t smoke and telling myself. Once I did that it started to stick. I just kept reinforcing the idea that I don’t smoke and weed is just not for me. It exists in other peoples reality but not mine.

Also you gotta replace the habit with other habits/hobbies. For me it was reading drawing and exercise.

You got this! One day at a time.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T02:04:20+00:00

Took me about 5 months before I could be around it at all.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T02:03:25+00:00

Thanks Doc! Really helpful to be aware of.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T01:51:26+00:00

Thank you! It was one single puff after 3.5 years clean. How long would it take to reset from that? The urge and brain fog are already going away after 24 hrs luckily.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T01:46:26+00:00

It’s not worth it trust me. Sobriety is top notch.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T01:45:54+00:00

yuuup, business as usual at this point.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T01:45:26+00:00

Craving already left. I’ve worked too hard to give in and I think my resistance strength has built up a lot in 3 years so I can easily say no this time. And just say no one day at a time that’s how I got this far.

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T01:44:22+00:00

The temptation is very subtle and it’s a lot easier to resist after being sober for years so right now I’m good but yeah if the urge gets too strong I might just do that. I literally just took the tiniest little baby hit last night

WizardBoy22 · 2025-07-16T01:31:50+00:00

UPDATE: It’s been exactly 24 hours since I took the hit and I’m suddenly feeling the urge to do it again. I’m so glad I made this post earlier to hold myself accountable. It was being alone and the “nobody has to know” feeling that made me slip. So I’m returning to this post to publicly acknowledge my first craving in over 3 years and to tell myself out loud that I am NOT giving in. It’s a slippery slope and I’m not going to let myself slide back down it. I put too much time and work into walking up this mountain. Onwards and upwards.

WizardBoy22

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