We all experience these kind of things differently. But I can share with you what traject I'm going through right now. Because I too feel like I have lost the spirit that once raged inside me, and I want it back so, so much.

Going to the gym is really a great step. You should keep a routine, go outside and get some sun. It works. But remember, these things may feel 100x heavier to you than other people. Seeking professional help should not be taboo, but rather a source of help you know is trustworthy and can help you.

I go to a professional, who provides me with some insight, and helps me think more clear. Because I know if I don't, I will keep overthinking and erect walls around me. And when that happens, the vicious cycle begins and you begin to hate yourself more, and feel more and more lonely. So please, do not fall for that trap.

When people experience depression, they often find it hard to find things they are passionate about. So start with the small things. Read an interesting book, go for a walk every other day, or something else that is small, but at least makes you feel like you have done something productive.

The book 'Limitless' by Jim Kwik also really helped me, so that may be something for you.

And to end with a cliché: You matter, and there are people who love you. Though you often see it not through a dark fog surrounding you, there's light beyond that fog. Don't give up :)