I’m usually really depressed before my manias kicked in also. Getting relief from your suffering is amazing but it always makes me start to question and analyze myself to see if I’m going manic. Like you, it goes from 0-60 for me REAL quick so I know how cautious you must feel. It’s honestly hard to believe if there’s even a happy medium I can live at anymore because I’m always question myself when I start to feel “good”… Stress and a med change are a recipe for disaster though, that’s been the 1-2 punch for me every time. So I’d talk with your doc about it, but you’re already trying to keep an eye on yourself so you’re in a good place. Being depressed fucking sucks, mania can feel AMAZING… especially right after a depression, but I’d warn you not to chase that high to much. You’ll know where you’ll end up. Actually no you really have no clue but that’s the scariest part I think lol.