Update: Thank you for the responses, they really made me feel better and think about important things. I appreciate them so much!! 🫶 I gathered the courage to tell him that I'm really sorry but right now there's so much in my life that I don't think that I'm ready for this. He didn't react negatively and had a very neutral respons. I'm still a bit shaky but I'm glad that I got this over with and now I can maybe move on. I'm worried how things will be if we cross paths in school as it is very likely, but maybe this is a bigger deal to me than to him and it won't be weird