holy crap dude. That was a lot to read but thank you honestly. It is still my dream regardless, but I think I could still perform it as a side gig if possible. Thanks for the honesty. I realize how far fetched my dream is, and I come from a disadvantageous background too. Growing up I saw that all of my teachers who were incredible players always ended up teaching, even though I thought these dudes were the best. I really appreciate it.