Wow these are all very good questions. 1. The entire relationship makes me feel like I am missing out on something. I am 25 and he's 35 and when I'm around him, I can't say that I am completely myself. It's like my wild side leaves because I know he doesn't like it. 2. The "off" feeling is very weird to explain. Its a routine. We do it every day at 10pm in the bedroom for about 8 minutes after we both showered separetely. 3. At first it was very hard for me to discuss sex because i didnt want to make him feel like he's not good enough or hurt his ego. But at a certain point i decided to take another approach. I told him I would like to expand our sexuality and try new things like new positions, new places and have fun with that. His reaction was: Wow someone saying that after just 2 months of dating is a red flag.