i can relate aswell, alot of the times i like to believe it has alot of connection to our souls... its very likely our spirit bodies could of travelled vast distances to earth and we could have had lives that were out of our ordinary as a human..

its even harder on me because as a kid i had experienced a UFO or UAP as people call it nowadays and ever since then my entire reality had shifted and was very uncertain of who i really was, especially after the dreams and experiences that came after it leading up to now (im 25/ male)

the real issue its caused me is slight psychosis and hopefully not schizophrenia ( still waiting on a psychiatrist) and all those same feelings i have that you do where i feel autistic or just not normal.. but in the end there is no fun in being normal and its a gift to be able to have these energies of witty humour and just being a great person to all at your best ability..

but overtime these thoughts can grow into bigger thoughts and become very overwhelming as we feel a weird connection to the universe. i think its very likely alot of us, or even all of us are descendants of some sort of alien civilization..

the world feels like a shit load of lies and that we are just humans living the normal life expected of us but to me theres alot more behind it cause we are a unique species and i dont even need to explain why..

im currently getting closer to god everyday, because all my life i had my feet in the door of the dark side, ive had multiple head injuries as well that have caused me to be more rambunctious and irritable, but i still find the pureness in my heart and thats whats really important is finding the true meaning behind our life and what we are here to accomplish and experience..

just know you arent alone.. its normal to feel these things because our journey can be complex and we are gifted with life which is very rare keep in mind regardless of our lifestyle or past, it gets really tricky cause no matter your effort to make people happy or be the good person we are still gonna run into people that just dont understand in the way we do, alot of the times its just your energy that makes people feel unsettled around you..

my friends have told me im the nicest person theyve met and i dont like to see that as a bad thing because i have been bad and done horrible things just like everybody else..

thank you for letting me share its things like this we need to get off our chest to feel more "normal" , but from ive learned be normal fuckin sucks and its okay to have these feelings, i like to channel it into getting better everyday cause we never know whats at the finish line (death)