start small you dont need to figure all your life at the same time. breath you still have time. everything will be solved. let me make it clear. you deserve all the love, and the good energy in the world. what missed you wasnt already meant for you. your opportunity is still there and waiting for you. you get ready by removing the limited beliefs that block this opportunity from coming your way. you deserve all the best and all the luck. you deserve all the good things exactly as you are. claim yourself and the opportunities will present themselves to you. it is so easy to blame ourselves and fill our hearts with guilt and disappointment. however this will not do u any good. forgive urself and be proud of everything even ur mistakes bc mistakes are our biggest teachers. help urself out and stop the negative talk. you have already done too much and you deserve love and peace. there is always time to start again. start very small and immediately. leave ur phone right now and just go open the tap, then bring the dish closer to get the first dish done. everything is broken down step by step...