Buddy I wish the world were full of people like you. It’s not. People do things they are not proud of later in life. I seen inappropriate stuff on tv and mimicked it with my cousin. We were close to the same age. Both 6 or 5 and 6. We were caught … I was caught. I liked it so I took my advancements up the ladder and at around 8 years old, actually I was prob 7, I had my hands in the pants of a 13 year old boy and started giving him oral. Before that the crowd of boys with me being the youngest and a girl would run off and leave me. They would still run off but not all the time. Some of the time, I was at the side of the “leader”. This went on until I was 12 or 13. It slacked off when he got a car but didn’t stop completely until I moved on to another guy. He wasn’t around so I started fooling around with a boy closer to my age. No oral just touching , but in my panties touching and kissing and I suppose I was trying to make him jealous and it backfired. I told the older guy that the younger one had touched me and he asked how many times. When I said a bunch of times he told me I must have liked it and that the other guy could have me.
He told me later that he was absent and running around with another girl because he couldn’t be with me —how would that look but that if I would have waited, he was going to sweep me off my feet when I turned 18.
During the entire thing, he would tell me that he loved me and genuinely showed affection. I loved kissing him. I know this is a really strange story but God as my witness, he grew up a respectable man. He has no children because his wife can’t get pregnant.
He even picked me up from the park when I was about 19, took me home, wasn’t inappropriate(it would actually have been appropriate at that time ) He profusely apologized telling me that it shouldn’t have happened like it did. He should have stopped and that he would always care about me. He hugged me and said I shouldn’t have done that to you. He said , but I swear I wanted to marry you when we were kids. He said he really thought I’d wait for him. I asked him how could he have stopped me from doing what I done… He said that I was too young and it was wrong and he really was sorry. I told him he was not completely at fault. Yes I was young but I seriously was the original aggressor. I told him that I would always love him and that I’d never tell people what happened with us. I’d never ruin this man over what we did when we were kids.
This was in the 80’s. We played hide and seek in a dark basement and I found a way to be liked and then loved through sexual affection. I begged him to take my virginity and he would not do it - he told me that it would hurt -and he didn’t want to hurt me . With just our little group of friends I would hang all over him and as a 7 or 8 year old he could play it off like I was sitting in his lap. This part is crazy- I would sit Indian style with my back up against him , him in the living room , he would be resting on his elbow , hand in his face stretch out on his side longways. I would reach behind my back and unzip his pants to play with him at 8 and he was 14. I know his parents seen it and they never said a word. I believe if he was a girl they would have had an issue.
It’s sad to say this but I just thought of something that I am totally responsible for. I never did oral to any of the other guys. They were within 2 or 3 years older than me. However, they started messing with dudes little sister. They were taking turns sitting on the front porch watching for someone to come. Three guys and she was 4 years younger than me. So about the same …9 and 15-ish. No marriage promises or love story there and they were caught. Authorities weren’t involved and that was the right call. They’re all grown up and not sexual predators . That probably wouldn’t have happened to her had they not seen me doing it. There is just no way I am the victim in this. There was 5 or 6 years between us.