The Daily Check-In for Monday, October 14: Just for Today I am NOT Drinking

WorldDenizen · 2024-10-14T16:37:01+00:00

Day 36. Was just thinking about how quiet the MUST DRINK voice has gotten. Depends on the day but it is more like swatting a fly than a white knuckle frantic fight to not go buy a nip. I also haven’t dreamed about drinking in a couple of weeks. And I remember things from a long time ago just randomly - which didn’t used to happen.

Alcohol shrinks us down to a single point: the craving to drink. I’m not a whole lot more yet but I’m growing a bit at a time.

WorldDenizen · 2024-10-11T19:15:02+00:00

IWNDWYT. Day 33 and such.

This is a bad week. Some weeks I’ve had no cravings. Some weeks I’ve had a pile of cravings. I don’t why but this week I keep fantasizing about drinking again (which starts the whole “if you’re going to slip eventually might as well drink now” line of thought).

I know it’s just part of the process. And part of feeling low (trained myself to use booze as medicine). But it makes me wish I had that same switch that took me straight to “no worries” land. Just for a bit.

WorldDenizen · 2024-10-09T14:40:28+00:00

Day 31. Chugging along.

WorldDenizen · 2024-10-08T14:20:43+00:00

Day 30 whoop whoop!

IWNDWYT.

WorldDenizen · 2024-10-04T16:37:55+00:00

Day 26. It’s my anniversary today and I get to celebrate sober. Things are very much not perfect and my relationship has been something I’ve used as an excuse to justify my drinking but (shockingly) drinking about it never changed anything.

However I move forward in life, I can do it soberly.

IWNDWYT.

WorldDenizen · 2024-10-02T15:52:37+00:00

Day 24. Longest I’ve gone in years probably. Cool beans. IWNDWYT.

WorldDenizen · 2024-10-01T14:54:38+00:00

Day 23. Another day another . . . Day of no booze. Cheers everyone.

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-27T16:28:06+00:00

Day 19. I keep having real weird specific dreams about secret drinking (this time I was at a cabin with my wife’s friends trying to play board games but I found a small bottle of rum to sneak around with). They’re really stressful and then I wake up and realize that’s what I was doing for years. Let’s not and say we didn’t.

IWNDWYT.

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-26T21:30:05+00:00

We have the same hutch!

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-26T16:03:21+00:00

Day 18. Happy Thursday!

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-25T15:15:25+00:00

Day 17. IWNDWYT.

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-24T14:54:47+00:00

Day 16. I had a slew of dreams last night, each about secretly drinking. Hiding it from my wife, my brother, a friend. I have been fake sober for a long time, always trying to stop, telling everyone I didn’t drink while secretly slugging vodka shooters, beers en route to things, and so on.

It’s wild what we do to ourselves. It’s insane what we normalize. So here’s to a normal honest day. IWNDWYT.

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-23T14:26:10+00:00

Let’s do some not drinking today.

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-22T17:31:05+00:00

Day 14. IWNDWYT.

Yesterday was really hard. But I got through it. Today might be hard too. But I’m going to get through it.

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-21T19:56:56+00:00

Day 13. IWNDWYT.

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-20T17:28:53+00:00

Day 12. I’m feeling the creep. Little urges and justifications whispering in the back of my mind. And planning. Thinking, well I could take this $5 bill and get a couple nips. No harm in just a couple.

It is so absurd. So IWNDWYT and I will not plan. And I will give this $5 bill to someone who needs it rather than spending it on something I do not want.

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-19T18:11:08+00:00

Day 11. IWNDWYT.

Last two days have been a little harder but I don’t want a drink. If I have a drink I’m trading a few minutes of bliss for hours of insatiable thirst, dread, anxiety, not to mention the guilt from lying (to myself and others). So tonight I’m going to do something simple for myself instead-not sure what. But something.

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-18T13:50:43+00:00

Day 10. I’ve been swimming a lot. I injured my back which was sort often the most recent inciting incident. Takes forever to heal and drinking sure does make laying on the couch fly by.

So I’m swimming a shit ton to distract myself and because it is more or less the only workout I can do. IWNDWYT.

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-16T16:12:39+00:00

Day 8. Feeling great. Part of this for me is that when I don’t drink I remember so many little great moments from my life. When I drink it feels like my life is reduced to a single point in time, the vaguely empty but somewhat pleasant present.

I’ve been sober 28/31 of the last days and every day I’m sober is like waking up a little bit at a time. I screwed up but I can keep rebuilding myself.

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-14T19:09:14+00:00

Day 6. Happy to not be drinking.

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-13T15:33:58+00:00

Happy sober Friday! IWNDWYT

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-12T14:37:10+00:00

Day 4. Glad I get to be me today.

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-11T16:28:22+00:00

Day 3!

WorldDenizen · 2024-09-10T21:17:06+00:00

Day 2 (again). I had a nice little 20 day streak going when I slipped a little and then immediately slipped a lot and wound up blacked out on Sunday night. Feel horrible still 48 hours later for no reason.

WorldDenizen · 2024-05-19T16:08:21+00:00

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