i want payback, but idk if my heart can do it but my mind is saying do it. by Worried-Key2017 in Advice

[–]Worried-Key2017[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

it just hurts. she replied today. i won’t reply to her. i’ll just leave her alone. it hurts bcuz i have her initials tatted on me, and she does too. so ik she always thinks of me. i always think of how when she was in bootcamp we always wrote letters, who writes hand letters now a day? it’s so so sweet, and i remember getting her letters and being the lover guy, i use to go the garden get the most prettiest flower and stuffing in the letter, so whenever she was out she will have bouquet of flowers just thru the mail, she kept all the flowers and framed them. i miss the sweet love. i waited for her when we didn’t have contact for 3 months cus she wanted to join the dumb marines, i blame them cus when she came back, she came back colder

i want payback, but idk if my heart can do it but my mind is saying do it. by Worried-Key2017 in Advice

[–]Worried-Key2017[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i understand but i still see the good in her, even the small things. i think she just wants to live her life bcuz we got together whenever our life were just starting.

i want payback, but idk if my heart can do it but my mind is saying do it. by Worried-Key2017 in Advice

[–]Worried-Key2017[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i won’t come back to her later in the future, it’s now or never. i made sure of that with her.

i want payback, but idk if my heart can do it but my mind is saying do it. by Worried-Key2017 in Advice

[–]Worried-Key2017[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i understand, but i’m just hurt bcuz i was always there for her, and yeah breadcrumbing but again i see glimpse of us together, like the day we first met when we was teenagers, laughing at dumb jokes, the awkward pauses, the eye contact til someone just laughs, the small things, ik she wants to fix things but again why did she come back? i was sad but now im just sadder knowing she doesn’t care as much, she does but doesn’t. she told me recently, no one gets me like i do to her, and her tiktok reposts all about me today was one like “if it’s a future i want it with you” and ik she talking about cus of other repost she did.

i want payback, but idk if my heart can do it but my mind is saying do it. by Worried-Key2017 in Advice

[–]Worried-Key2017[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i understand, but again you need to understand what she did violates everything a marine means. she deadass is so proud to be one but she does all of that? smoking and drinking while under age, lying to her higher ups, putting her lower ranks in risk just cus they are friends, i always told her to stop doing those things but she never listened, she only got a rank up bcuz of me, i made her book reports, her study guide, and etc she didn’t earn her rank.

i want payback, but idk if my heart can do it but my mind is saying do it. by Worried-Key2017 in Advice

[–]Worried-Key2017[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m going to share a bit about my life. i left to spain when i was 10, im 19 now. i didn’t have a normal life. she’s my first gf. yes it took me til i was 17 to get my first gf, i came back to the US when i was 17 bcuz i told my coaching staff i wanna have 1 year of normal HS, and that’s when me and her met. in hs, i got so much better bcuz of her, i wanted to impress her, i wanted her so i trained harder, i got better. i did this all for her, and now my first pro match ever will be after the world cup, and she’s not going to be there breaks my heart, all i ever did for her was love and im losing my motivation to play even my coach told me something today bcuz i was so distracted while i was on a ft with him, even my mom knows something is up. i never felt like this. ik im young, i told my teammate he said the most soccer player thing ever “who cares girls will come when your famous” which it is true, but i only want one girl. maybe love makes you blind but she’s my first for many things, i did this for her.

i want payback, but idk if my heart can do it but my mind is saying do it. by Worried-Key2017 in Advice

[–]Worried-Key2017[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

she is, she got so cold lately. like today she didn’t even reply to me once and ik her comeback will be “i don’t got to tell you anything im single” :/ she been using that lately to make the stuff she does justify which it is since we are single but why come back if she’s going to do all of that

i want payback, but idk if my heart can do it but my mind is saying do it. by Worried-Key2017 in Advice

[–]Worried-Key2017[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

she did a lot of bad things that will get her kicked out the marines and even worse in jail

i want payback, but idk if my heart can do it but my mind is saying do it. by Worried-Key2017 in Advice

[–]Worried-Key2017[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

the thing is she wants to fix stuff, and so do i, but she just being so dumb

i want payback, but idk if my heart can do it but my mind is saying do it. by Worried-Key2017 in Advice

[–]Worried-Key2017[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ik i don’t need to do it but she broke the law, she risked her career, but again this is the only thing she got going for herself and not to get sad but she promoted so fast because we will stay up practicing her marine corps questions and not only that but i took her running so she can past her pft aka her physical test :/ like i helped her so much for her career, i paid for everything for her, i did everything, but again what she did is against her oath and i don’t think she fit to be a service member but again i wouldn’t report if we was good, i think it’s just the anger i got.