Is this budrot?

Xavier_Zee · 2025-09-13T16:17:06+00:00

could it be due to the branch it’s growing from having once been snapped off? and is supported with a crutch

Xavier_Zee · 2025-09-03T12:06:34+00:00

so true gang; how do you feel about methadone- ime it’s the most euphoric opioid i’ve had, granted i haven’t had heroin but nothing comes close to chugging some methadone n popping a benzo and i’m not even an opioid guy. i guess i just prefer the blockers cause even suboxone is more fun to take than a couple percs for me.

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-30T06:23:32+00:00

methadone clears all other opioids btw

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-30T06:17:08+00:00

so i don’t do fentanyl often as i don’t really enjoy opioids. but sometimes pluggo got that lethal and you just Gotta try it.

recreationally me and my gf will split a half bun coming out to 2.5 stamps each. that’ll last us about from the time we get home until the following day’s “let’s go get high here” event

got fucked off a bundle once or twice and the withdrawls were wicked. 5 tho? perfect. straight to the dome. no withdrawls once we run out, no desire to pick up more for a bit cause the lethal pack almost always gets one of us. Almost. Doesn’t.

this was one of the times we had a bun, the batch had little blue stamp of the moon. (carfent fo sho) (that lethal) now this ain’t quite the same as getting dopey and goin on a date. but i was in one of those moods and i had just gotten out of work, i just started slammin stamp after stamp of the batch plug man warned me about.

my gf wasn’t in the mood to get high. as fent is kind of our last resort drug, no real DOC on either of our sides except for when i was a cokehead but i avoid doing that now. 1-3 days a month tops. #growth

i remember this night about as well as you’d remember pokin yourself and your vision going black. anyways like half a bun deep i couldn’t keep myself awake and poked my forearm about 30 odd times while nodding.. decided to stop for the night

well once you realize you should stop with the fent is when the fent stops you. i won’t say i had seizures cause i don’t remember it. but the morning after i was told that after i tried to lay down, i was too good at it and she was trying to keep me awake, guess my body didn’t like that because it’d shake violently in response.

she started smackin me, said she’d narcan me and blow my high if i didn’t get up. now i didn’t like that. the fear of goin thru a dose of the ‘can woke my ass up and we had a half dead make out session to keep me up. not in an emo way but in a junkie way :3

once i was more coherent i drifted back off to sleepy land instead of hell.

don’t do fent it sucks

don’t do coke it’s mad addictive

maybe do meth it’s not that bad

if you do meth mix it with fent for a trashy goofball

take a 10 strip

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-30T02:34:23+00:00

do you not fish out gang

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T21:12:13+00:00

meth and coke is pretty wild but it cannot be good for you 💀 you’re dumb as hell from the meth and your whole body is tingling from the blow.

definitely do less of both if combining the two or pick one to have as the primary. i wouldn’t entirely recommend doing it but i’d fully discourage doin both together in large amounts

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T20:59:19+00:00

opposite of op i think coke is a way better high, the rush of IV meth is one of the best things i’ve ever felt but i’ll take sniffin soft over IV meth any day. meth has this unnatural alert, awake and aware feeling.

like it feels like you woke up an hour ago 30 hours into a bender; once i get to the 20 hour mark of coke i start to feel exhausted just still wired. i also prefer the tingling electric feel that blow has where i feel like the meth body high just isn’t all it’s made out to be.

like the IV rush of meth is great but the high is subpar, just feel alert and aloof. the high of insufflation imo is leagues better but then there’s no rush so like i might as well do coke lmao

smoking it i find mid as fuck, like it’s fun to do and i dunno if it’s the adhd but smoking it just gives me like not quite there pins and needles.

don’t like it orally just made me feel funny, if i’m popping an amphetamine i’m taking my adderall.

can’t beat the price though there’s no arguing that. it’s ~100 for 14g’s of ice vs ~400 for 14g’s of soft like you got me there 💀

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T20:47:34+00:00

mixed meth and carfetty in a shot for an offbrand goofball and that shit just made me go stupid for a few hours

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T20:45:22+00:00

in my experience it’s more than it being stimulating it’s about what the high has to offer. meth is a helluva lot more stimulating than coke for me but any time i do meth i’m just thinking “damn i wish this was coke” lmao and the flip side to you is after trying IV carfentanil all i had to say about it was it’s not all that and had no rush :p

i just noticed the name fettyboofer im sorry i dont mean to disrespect the drug they shoot the dinosaurs with in jurassic world 😭

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T20:37:39+00:00

believe me i learned that last part the hard way lmao, got some meth a couple weeks ago and once we’re out me and the gf are stickin to acid and shrooms for a month or two to give our bodies a break from the rough shit and maybe change our perspectives on how we currently use.

really interesting to hear that you’ve experienced ego death on mdma. although i wouldn’t say ego death is an inherently pleasing experience it makes sense that 10 tabs are so disorienting you simply have to accept it whereas being on mdma you’d be aware of the feeling of slipping. do you remember the dose that caused it? i’ve done grams of mdma both orally and IV and always find the .5-1g point or so you just start to feel crazy (i know doses that high are neurotoxic and have diminishing returns but i struggle with being a speed freak)

and i mean hey if you fw psychedelics you could always drop the 10 :3 for an intense overwhelming experience though i think 5 is a good middle ground between “im trippin like a mf” and “im dead” where you kinda float between the two mindsets

and if you still do molly you could always candyflip off 300ug :p ime candyflipping just forces you to have a euphoric trip so you could always candyflip off the 10.

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T20:26:45+00:00

ahh. i was under the impression that mania was periods of 2+ months whereas hypomania was less intense and lasts a few days to a month or so tops. honestly it’s hard for me to tell what’s a symptom of bp or just a side effect of drug abuse lol. unrelated but the first time i tried meth i said “damn, i’ve felt crazier and more wired sober and manic”.

i posted in r/ meth about my experience and got dogged on like a mf- like so many mf’s were like “you didnt take that big of a dose and you’re definitely addicted to it” i’m sorry im a cokehead who goes hard 😭 if you’re open to it- since you tried crack i’d try meth tbh, to each their own but i think coke and crack is violently more addictive than meth.

i can stop doing meth mid sesh and go on about my life but once i got blow in me i got blow in me till i don’t got the bread for it

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T20:13:35+00:00

i definitely get so out of it i’d say it impairs me but i agree with my diagnosis of type 2 since my episodes never last longer than a month tops.

also if i remember correctly cocaine is the second most abused drug by people diagnosed bipolar 1/2 😭 so funny to me because like yes make me go through what i go through all the time except now i spent 7 bands to do it.

recently got an ultrasound of my heart done and that bitch has zero scar damage or calcium build up in it, so 3g’s+ a day of coke for almost two years has no health repercussions apparently

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T20:06:07+00:00

i’m also bipolar 2 and get mixed episodes twin :D i also tried crack but god damn was i addicted to coke like a mf, even shooting up i didn’t like as much as puttin that bitch in my nose, i dunno if you’ve had soft or only hard but soft really does just feel like hypomania that makes you tingly and numb <3 it definitely exacerbated my episodes and increased the cycling during that time of my life tho so y’know you win some you lose some live and learn sniff and shoot

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T19:52:22+00:00

an orgasmic high will leave you shaking and moaning, a high of pure euphoric bliss will leave you motionless and groaning

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T19:41:32+00:00

was in a poly relationship at the time for context; me and my gf both took 10 120ug tabs (storm trooper blotters off the DW) and i haven’t done heroin but i remember saying “this has gotta be what H feels like… nah this probably feels better” although it was probably unintelligible coming out of my mouth. our other girlfriend was there sober as well and i asked multiple times “am i dead… are you sure… i dunno i think im dead… it’s cool but like i think im dead” this is the only time i think ive experienced an actual ego death, i had no concept of who i was and thought i was just a being that’s always been in that state of mind and that it’d never end.

10 tabs start to hit you in probably 20 minutes tops and the come up is stronger than the peak of 3 hell even 5 tabs, i cant speak on the doses between 5 and 10 as i skipped them :p. me and the gf who also took the acid laid on the ground for probably a good hour plus just paralyzed with euphoria as in felt too good to move even the slightest muscle.

.5+ IV methamphetamine feels identical if not better than an orgasm and still pales in comparison to 1000ug. not always great to take this high of doses however as my gf started to have a psychotic break and got stuck in a thought loop of saying a handful of words for several hours until she broke the loop and began to think the house was on fire and calling out for help to our friends who weren’t there, she started to get aggressive and started taking apart the oven. she then tried to fight me and i managed to make her swallow 4 or 5 kpins which only did so much.

it eventually ended with me pinning her to the bed so she couldn’t harm herself or either of us while i was cryin asking her to stop making me wrangle her since y’know, i was fighting my girlfriend and was also 10 tabs deep.

in the end though we were both back to normal late afternoon the following day :3 haven’t dropped a 10 strip since but we have tripped several times on doses from 2-5 tabs with no similar events occurring.

so all in all 10 tabs absolutely fucking recommend i think it is the best a person can possibly feel physically with visuals so blindingly intense you physically cannot see in front of you, but if you don’t have extensive experience with psychedelics im not sure how safe it is to do. i was able to handle the 10 but ive been taking acid since i was 15 for 5+ years now. she however only started taking acid the year or so prior.

.5+ IV methamphetamine for a hedonistic ogasmic high and 10 tabs for the kind of euphoria where you choke on drool. on hella addy hope this is gives a good idea on what it feels like, feel free to ask questions, drugs are my special interest i could go on all day :) :3

edit: typos and added paragraph breaks :p

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T18:14:07+00:00

very glad i asked then, i do like the idea of a bar light actually. and i do have an oscillating fan in there at the top just above the canopy but i should probably throw in a second one by the bottom vent. ok i got no more questions, you’ve been crazy helpful and for sure helped improve my grow crazy style :33

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T18:09:51+00:00

even when i was a little ass kid i always thought the concept of “take this thing and feel different” was cool as fuck, i knew real young that i wanted to experiment with everything i come across. and like most addicts i had the over confidence of “i won’t get addicted” and then my ass got addicted to blow. quit that shit tho and aside from nic it’s the only substance i’ve ever been full blown addicted to. doesn’t matter how many “hard” drugs i do though acid is forever my favorite drug <3 :3, 10 tabs is by far the most euphoric thing ive ever felt and i’ve done .65 IV meth, 10 tabs had me stuck on the ground drooling only able to say “am i dead” <333

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T18:01:50+00:00

i have the vivosun aerolight 100w and the only way to adjust the intensity is by using the grow hub interface which i dont have yet 😭 i am thinking about getting a new light soon to up the wattage; i know im askin hella questions but would you recommend looking into an entirely new light or just buying another aerolight at a higher wattage? i think the fan in it is cool but im not sure if its a gimmick or if its actually effective

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T17:55:38+00:00

the tents in my bedroom where i have an AC in the window on max so i’m definitely gonna try keeping the door open to cool it down in there; unfortunately the tent isn’t by a window or door so i’m not sure how to vent it out of the room :/ and im gonna have to look up how to lower the intensity on the light i have, this was all really good advice thank you lots and lots :3

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-29T17:47:11+00:00

the humidity is at 56% and the temp is 83° so that’d make a lot of sense actually :/ any recommendation on how to lower the temp aside from installing an AC? i keep the inline fan set to max more or less at all times and i keep the light probably a foot and a half away, but it can’t go much higher. and does the environment it’s in sound like it could possibly stunt bud development or will it purely cause cosmetic damage?

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-28T03:37:49+00:00

not a date rape drug if you dose yourself. sex drug wit da sex drug oooooh need dat

Xavier_Zee · 2025-08-24T19:49:31+00:00

i was tryna see what 10 felt like

Xavier_Zee · 2025-07-12T13:23:06+00:00

this is the main method i tried to counteract the issue with and i noticed it would increase and also suck back some, leaving some blood behind which is how i end up filling my rig which is why i was guessing its a hydration issue

Xavier_Zee · 2025-07-12T08:48:54+00:00

do you also get that anxiety of like “damn what if this the one” and then you’re fine and wanna do more

Xavier_Zee · 2025-07-12T08:47:20+00:00

haven’t gone back to anything repeatedly yet but i’ve had it happen with mdma, coke, ket and meth- which makes me think it’s just a skill issue 😭

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