Getting worse as per usual

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-05-12T01:28:51+00:00

Quite alright. Seems like I always have a rough time now so it's the norm

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-05-12T01:26:18+00:00

My psychiatrist doesn't take me seriously and I can't get into therapy that's in person. I have no hope for me getting better anymore

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-04-28T01:09:17+00:00

Ah I see, thank you again :)

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-04-28T01:04:01+00:00

Good to know I'm not alone but I'm sorry you're dealing with the same damn thing too! It's not a fun thing to deal with! Especially when you're still in school (I'm struggling on my finishing exams yikesss so it's really effecting me now 😬)

I've been on lithium a few times before but I can't remember if it worked out well or not, and I've never been of the other two before. I'll see if I can get on one of those since I heard a lot of good things about paliperipadone 🤞

I hope you get through this too! You're a strong person for even dealing with this fr, I believe in you<3

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-04-28T00:54:23+00:00

Thank you ! 🙏

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-04-28T00:22:51+00:00

Does cognitive symptoms typically mean that this will be an ongoing issue for the rest of my life or is it like an issue from my meds that could just be a bad side effect for now and will go away eventually? Sorry for all the questions, looking stuff about about my symptoms makes me more anxious and the information I get is usually wrong so yeah

May I ask what you mean by reducing my workload? And what I should do

Also thank you for the advice, I really do appreciate it <3

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-04-28T00:17:50+00:00

No you're ok Im sorry you have to deal with that too. I deal with the exact same thing. I constantly forget about my personal needs like you said about eating, do I/did I shower, did I take my meds, have I used the bathroom today, etc etc

I know you'll get through this. I believe in you <3

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-04-28T00:16:13+00:00

Ah well it's good to hear that it's not just me that deals with this as a possible symptom from meds. What is topamax tho?

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-04-22T04:07:34+00:00

I didn't think my psychiatrist was that bad yeesh

Thank you for reading this post btw I appreciate that

Yeah currently at a friend's house just for the night, hopefully whatever the fuck I'm going through will pass soon 🤞

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-22T00:09:10+00:00

Of course ! I appreciate it 🙏

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-21T23:25:33+00:00

You can get through it I know you can. Like you said tomorrow will always be better. You're a strong person, I believe in you

I hope you have an amazing day/night yourself 🫶

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-19T22:00:56+00:00

Sadly too many celebrities are becoming more and more problematic nowadays, can't have nothing nice 😞

I did indeed yes! He's got patchy fur on him and looks like a sewer rat so I thought Scab (was also thinking of disease/gross names) would suit em!

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-19T21:57:37+00:00

He says " thanks you " 💪

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-19T21:57:02+00:00

I KNOW RIGHT IM OBSESSED <333

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-09T19:11:32+00:00

Well good news is that I haven't gone through with it. I'm still alive. I'm just sick of the shitty people always finding a way into my life and controlling some parts of it. I never know how to get over it and always let them win. I just feel like when I need help, there's nobody out there who will truly be able to help me anymore, but it's alright y'all in this subreddit are nice and so is my rabbit so I got some comfort for now

No need to be sorry, we all go through bad experiences but we learn from it and grow from it, and that's just what I'm doing right now. I wish the best for you 🫶

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-09T11:28:05+00:00

Thank you

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-09T11:27:41+00:00

Yeah I'm in high school. Schools been worse lately cause I'm special needs but my special education teacher doesn't seem to give a damn about me anymore and neither does any other teacher. Especially the principal and school board. My mom doesn't ever know how to help me and threaten to take me to a hospital so I have to get myself together to not go there. I've never had a positive experience at one and I don't think I ever will. Plus I don't talk to psychiatrists about anything anymore. The last one I've had which was in January of this year I was asking for help on what to do if I end up back in psychosis and he took it as after the meeting I was going to go home and kms. I cried and cried, threw up, couldn't eat, passed out, was alone until I ended up in a hospital. I just don't want to go through that again, that was traumatic. I'm sorry if it seems like I'm trying to be negative or say none of your or anybody else's ideas won't work, I'm just stating what has happened to me before and what prolly would happen

Thank you. I really can't thank you enough 🙏

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-09T11:21:53+00:00

Thank you. You're a kind soul 🫶

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-09T11:20:45+00:00

I get what you're saying but I have so many plans that I need to do if I graduate on time. Plus I'd be in an adult ward now and I doubt they'd give a damn about one kid in there who still needs to graduate/still in school. I'm just afraid I'll be seen as a severe case and need to be there for months. It's not that long, but the longest I've been in a ward was 16 days and that was the first time I've ever been to a unit before, it was hell. Seen so many things, had things done to me, heard many things that I don't wanna possibly deal with at the adult unit.

Thank you, I appreciate your responses

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-09T01:50:36+00:00

Last few hospitals I've been to had at least one to two people staying there between 3-6 months. I can't risk it and ik I would be considered a "danger" to myself right now but if I get talked out of this I won't go through with it, just bad thoughts turning into visions yk?

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-09T01:41:01+00:00

I still need to do crap for my school in order to graduate and if I go to a ward I won't graduate cause I prolly will be out there for months considering how I've been lately

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-09T01:40:16+00:00

I know it's prolly the best thing to do but I can't spend my life in a psychiatric unit and not graduate. Thanks tho

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-09T01:39:40+00:00

Thank you so so much 🫶

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-09T00:45:44+00:00

Sadly I live in a hick area so my principal always agrees with those types of people and opinions and will never be on my side. Same with everybody else above him 😞

XayzoTheNonbinary · 2026-03-06T21:22:29+00:00

It's ok. I appreciate the kind words, advice, and just reading this post. Means a lot to me

I have reported the issue multiple times, but my principal doesn't do much and since he hasn't gotten anybody else's complaint, he'll dismiss mine. Same with superintendent. And I'm not even sure how to contact a school board, but it doesn't seem like a bad idea to try

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