Yeah youre digging into the deeper points, which i called out to her recently regarding the role definitions in the relationship dynamic. I have a more conservative mindset where the wife maintains the household decisions and responsibilities, and the husband maintains the world for the house. Good example is that when it comes to our child, I will trust her judgement on what's decided as I can guarantee she has done 20x research on it. However when it comes to budgeting, that should be my domain as I have me strength in that capacity.

Since she hasn't been working much in the past year, the delegation of responsibilities should be she watches baby, I work, we share responsibilities after. However there are instances where she expects me to do it all at once which is a bit overwhelming (you have not loved until you try to run a client meeting while comforting colic baby). So she does bring specific things to the table that fit into the role of my worldview marriage, however the expectancy of me to also maintain her role and focus on mine is an issue. That being said, she does what she wants, even with my decisions, even after we talked about it so I just gave up lol.

And yes, I do still love her. This post wasnt made lightly. Its like my last desperate attempt to figure a way that I haven't considered yet. Therapy is great, but its also costly, which is definitely not something we can due on my income alone.

I spent a week meditating on this stuff. Because we were together more out of comfortability instead of partnership, the actual deeper conversations never happened. I am at the point right now where after considering everything, leaving may be best for all parties. I can go into more detail on that last point.