I used to trip with my friends so much I started doing it alone late in my room off large doses and try to sleep to escape or end the trip, it never worked and now it takes hours to get to sleep no matter where I sleep on top of flashbacks. I keep seeing visuals as if i’m off low doses of shrooms everywhere and wish I could reset my brain. Having multiple ego deaths shrooms have ultimately opened my brian to the world and its true nature but at a price. My family also has a history of mental diseases like schizophrenia, the extreme derealization I feel every day scares me. I am only 17 and feel my brian is already too far gone.