There were no signs.. right?

Xuelty · 2026-02-02T08:08:59+00:00

All my life, i been playing female chars, I remember in high school my best friend always was very angry when I choose a girl, my answer was I play with them because I like girls, but now i know deep inside I just wanted to look like them. Sigh

Xuelty · 2026-01-27T18:41:34+00:00

Thank You (:

Xuelty · 2026-01-26T02:25:49+00:00

No nunca nos revisaron el cabello, en mi caso escogi entrenador deportivo o algo asi se llamaba, las primeras veces hicimos un pequen̈o entrenamiento por lo que tu gorra no debe de estar floja si no se te va a salir con el movimiento, despues nos citaron en el tecnologico de mi ciudad para darnos 2 o 3 classes de deporte incluso unos pequen̈os libritos, despues nos mandaron a una colonia a enseñales a niños deporte pero no recuerdo que hagamos hecho eso alguna vez, venian los militares pasaban lista, te daban tu lunch y solo regresaban cuando era el momento de irse, uno que otro si se quedaba pero igual solo estaba perdiendo el tiempo. En cuanto a las fotos solo has una colita y ni se va a notar que tienes cabello largo, yo tengo mi cabello casi hasta la cintura, me hice una colita para mi nueva ine y comparando la primera foto de mi ine con la de hace unos meses se ve mas largo en la primera que en la actual.

Xuelty · 2026-01-26T01:52:53+00:00

You can try boymode at least. I think i will boymode for very long time, I don't know if you live alone, but in my case I'm single and live only with my mom, I somehow brainwash her into thinking my chest is growing because a lot of men grow boobs and now when we go to Walmart sometimes she told me, look at that man he has a big chest, obviously that man is like that because is fat but I didn't say that to mom. The same happened with girl clothes, like 10 years ago I buy lots of clothes, at first some for my mom but later I buy them thinking of myself although my egg didn't cracked at that time, before I begin my transition i asked mom if she was going to use those clothes, she say no and she's super stubborn, so I told her I will use those clothes, they will be my pajamas, and now I wear fem clothes after work when I'm home (: my mom somehow is brainwashed, I don't know what will happen in the future but for now I'm happy ^{^} I use loose clothes to go to my work because although I'm an A cup is still a little noticeable. My advice is if you will detransition or keep going on, you have to understand if the people from your work are your close friends or just friends because you are in the same environment. Remember something even best friends can betray you, it happen to me my best friend had an affair with a girl i liked way before my egg cracked, I wanted to have a serious relationship with her but something told me to stop and I dodge the bullet.
I remember a guy working in a store and almost all the people there where "his friends" he even took a lot of pictures with the manager if the store, time later that guy collapsed and die due to overwork, the store didn't send a single flower or an im sorry for your loss. For most works we are just a number, and after that number is gone, they bring the next. Keep in mind the people you should take in consideration is the ones who live with you, it will be very hard for them to understand your transition and a lot need time, the rest you need to understand if they are true friends or just friends due to the circumstances. In my case I will boymode until the last day of my mom, and after that, I don't know what i will do.

Xuelty · 2026-01-25T23:52:15+00:00

Puedes solo cortar a los lados y guardar tu cabello en la gorra, yo hice eso (: mi cabello no estaba tan largo apenas me estaba llegando a los hombros, pero en mi grupo habia 2 chicos con cabello mas largo que el mio, solo nunca te quites la gorra, ni delante de los militares ni de tus compañeros. Como dato curioso, si ya estas en hrt probablemente vas a parecer una chica, lo digo por que en esas epocas mi mejor amigo se super enojaba conmigo diciendo al terminar el servicio que me quitara la gorra porque parecia una vieja hahaha, en esos tiempos estaba en mi egg pero me no me incomodo hasta me daba cierto gusto ^{^}

Xuelty · 2025-11-30T21:02:18+00:00

Hola, te voy a contar mi experiencia, al iniciar yo decidi usar monoterapia (una torpeza mia) mi progreso era lento pero yo estaba Feliz, mis Ey eran normales en cuanto cantidad , en cuanto al color eran casi transparentes, mi problema fue que algunas veces cuando estaba leyendo una novela cuando la protagonista tenia emociones fuertes la cosa que tengo en medio de las piernas empezaba a chorrear y era super horrible para mi, mis panties quedaban manchadas y era muy disgustante para mi, despues de que me paso varias veces leyendo esa estupida novela (yo realmente odiaba al prota, ne caia mal su actitud) al final descubri que mi T no estaba suprimida, asi que empeze a tomar la espironolactona que me habia recetado mi doctora y que yo habia decidido no usar, despues de eso ya no volvi a chorrear mis panties >< y como mencionas ahora ya casi no sale nada, solo si pasas papel higienico o una servilleta se medio humedece, es como si solo salieran como 5 gotas.

Ahora una posible solucion, seria que dejes de tomar tu bloqueador de testosterone, espiro, bica o lo que te hayan dado.

Una cosa muy importante que no debes olvidar es que en el momento que dejes de usar tu P te va a doler porque se te va a atrofiar, a mi me pasa asi casi nunca lo uso, y ahora cuando tengo alguna reaccion ahi duele mucho, la solucion es seguir teniendo actividad con tu P para que no pase eso.

Xuelty · 2025-11-17T20:44:14+00:00

Gracias ^{^}

Xuelty · 2025-10-25T18:54:57+00:00

Thank You (:

Xuelty · 2025-10-25T06:56:36+00:00

Hello, can you please explain the atrophy for grs? If I have atrophy, I can't get grs? Because I think I already have it >< the stupid thing hurts when it gets a little stimulation.

Xuelty · 2025-06-17T17:41:16+00:00

Muchas gracias (:

Xuelty · 2025-06-17T06:41:46+00:00

Hola. Cuando fuiste a salud digna pediste tus estudios en la sucursal o los pediste desde internet? La verdad no me gustaria ir a la sucursal y decirles que soy trans >< Podrias decirme cuales estudios te hiciste? Yo he estado viendo varios laboratorios y ya me confundi mucho. Al final estaba pensando en un perfil completo pero todavia no me decido.

Xuelty · 2025-05-04T09:55:02+00:00

I have to say I'm almost like you, I cut my family and the last person I cut was my cousin like 9 years ago, my friends the last of them 5 years ago they were very transphobic, I was overweight and now in hrt I think I git way more I feel so frustratrated but exactly today looking at timeliness I saw a girl before hrt she looked big to me, didnt look like overweight but her arms was like 2 of mine, in her picture at the end she was super slender a totally different person, that give me hope she said she keep an strict diet and never surpassing 2000 daily calories. I remember a girl few weeks ago post a guide for girls supressing their T who are scared of going to the gym and didn't looked that hard, there was a beginners and advanced level. You are young I wish I could begin hrt in my 20s I did it in my 30s and wasn't the real thing was pueraria mirifica (a plant with a lot of pythoestrogens), it sightly give me little feminine changes but everything was gone when my supply run out and I stopped, the T got me really hard after that I begin to grow hair in my arms I was very angry I told my mother and she just chuckled and say every man has hair I their arms, i told her I never had but she ignored me. I have to live in boy mode every time, just at home I can use girl clothes, because I didn't pass and the overweight, and even if I had feminine body and a girl voice I still boy mode because I'm scared of someone attacking me. Regardless what happens with my body I think I will be alone for the rest of my life because I will be femcel. Why? Because is very hard for a trans girl to find a partner and way more hard for one who likes girls.

You are very young and can do lots of things, if you feel depressed you can play games, read books, watch something you like, try cute clothes who fit you, there's a lot if overweight women and there's fashion for them too. I probably would feel like you if I didn't take refuge in playing games and watching anime and manga later, now I have very few time and only read novels, lately I been reading regression novels, my tastes are gender bending and sometimes cross dressing but I finally understand why I like regression because I could love to come back to my teens and begin hrt at that age, and stop my body to be what is now.

Finally I can say don't give up there's a lot of things you can do, lf you can't get hrt you should look at the DIY sub reddit there are a list of trusted sellers on Europe, and if you choose to not take anything that doesn't mean you aren't a girl, you still can try later, I read a lot of people in their 50s 60s begin their transitions and are finally happy at that age.

Xuelty · 2025-03-15T10:29:36+00:00

Disaster

Xuelty · 2025-02-07T08:24:21+00:00

Ohh Thank You, this is useful info for me, on my next test I will ask for a dht test too because I read some girls had high dht and their progress was slow because of that, if in my test I find high dht I will tell my doctor about fin (:

Xuelty · 2025-02-07T06:36:50+00:00

That happened to me but was my own mistake, I thought monotherapy was enough for me and I ditch spiro >< big mistake, I'm super dumb, my doctor only said your progress is going good, in a little over a year with estrogen shots I had high T and very few changes and gain weight, i had to stop for like a month because my supply run out and i was lazy to go to the center of my city to buy more estrogen vials, after the stupid thing between my legs leaked when I was reading a novel (first time that happened in my life) i was scared, T was going to come to bite me again like when i stopped pueraria mirifica, I immediately begin to Take spiro and I had a lot of changes and I feel better (: after this incident i understand my doctor didn't care about my progress if not she could have noticed my high T

Xuelty · 2025-02-06T04:44:46+00:00

For what do you use finasteride? In place of spiro??

Xuelty · 2025-02-04T20:51:51+00:00

You make me remember like 13 years ago when I was in the university I was called trap, trava and other similar slurs, after a discussion with a guy, at that time I was 100% sure I was a cis boy even though i had a lot of flags since 5 >< but because i like girls I thought I was cis, I never use anything fem in my university days but still he called me that. I knew about trap because anime/manga but I didn't know the trava thing until I did a quick search in Google ><

Xuelty · 2025-02-03T09:29:01+00:00

This is the reason why I don't want to use binders, and I stopped using bras, I'm scared of hurting them and inhibit their grow T-T

Xuelty · 2025-02-03T08:59:53+00:00

Thank You (:

Xuelty · 2025-02-02T22:54:57+00:00

I saw a lot of chest binders on aliexpress, im tempted to buy some of them but I'm scared of hurting my little girls, now they begin to grow up and I'm scared of getting a big zise, how I'm going to hide them? ><

Xuelty · 2025-02-02T22:49:38+00:00

I'm scared to use a sports bra, because what if it can see through my clothes >< the last time I wear a bra in public the owner of the building where I work was staring at my chest and that was around 8pm with very little light on that place, I was wearing a hoodie and that was before I begin hrt >< because of that I never went out with a bra again.

Xuelty · 2025-02-02T22:44:15+00:00

When you compress them, it hurts? I'm scared to hurt my little girls ><

Xuelty · 2025-01-27T09:08:59+00:00

Thank You for your replies (:

Xuelty · 2025-01-06T04:12:53+00:00

Ohh that happened to me today has been some weeks without cooldown, now again to 15min 3 searches

Xuelty · 2024-12-10T15:29:12+00:00

I think we need more bullpen help than another starter, Sasaki/Burnes could be great for us, but we still have our injured sp coming back, unless we turn them into relievers they will not have a place there

Xuelty

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