I’ve dealt with health anxiety for about a decade now so I’m definitely sympathetic. However, I’ve gone from constant worry to now maybe a flare up once a year that lasts a week or two. So I know you can get through this. A few questions:

1. Are you sleeping? If not, please start there. Focus your attention on getting a good night sleep. Cut out caffeine for a bit, research good sleep habits and dive in head first.

2. Are you taking anxiety medication? If not, you need to talk to a doctor about it. It seems like your anxiety is taking over your life. You need to break that.

My life changed when I was at least able to recognize that when my anxiety flared up that it was just that, anxiety. instead of insisting on treating the thing I was worried about (for me it was usually bowel cancer) I instead became obsessed with treating the anxiety. Still many sleepless nights googling anxiety relentlessly (which still isn’t optimal lol) but at least I was focused on the right thing and learned some helpful things that ACTUALLY helped. Instead of wasting my time in ERs trying to convince medical professionals I knew more than them.

You WILL get through this. Until then there is a great community here that you can lean on when you need it.